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February 5, 2010
After my earlier imaginings of various delicious foods, my stomach wouldn’t stop rumbling. I searched through my desk drawers again, pushing aside old cough drop wrappers and paper clips. Forget the burrito. Let me just find enough loose change to buy one pack of instant noodles, or a single piece of fruit.
I came up with twenty seven cents.
I thought about calling up one of my previous clients and asking for a loan, but dismissed the idea as ridiculously unprofessional.
I could visit my friend Saleem. He had always had food in his refrigerator, a smile on his face and good jokes to tell. But he’d be at work right now, in his job as program manager for a homeless shelter. Plus, ever since he’d gotten married I felt weird about visiting. His wife was extremely shy and would hide in the bedroom when I visited, making me feel like some Moorish invader who was only there to pillage their veggie samosas.
I looked in my own mini fridge, already knowing what I’d find: half a loaf of old, cracked Arabic bread, and a single slice of moldy cheddar cheese. I’d seen these yesterday but passed them up. Now I was hungry enough to eat them.
I put half a slice of cheese – mold and all – in a quarter loaf of bread, squirted in some ketchup from a packet that I found in the desk drawer, and proceeded to eat my makeshift sandwich. I would save the remainder of the moldy food for tomorrow. Did mold count as a vegetable?
I said bismillah then sat there chewing and grimacing at the taste, still thinking about the money that had walked out the door. Even though I’d only known that money for a minute, I missed it as if it were a friend who had abandoned me. I knew my mind was running on a single track that morning, but hunger and overdue bills will do that to a man.
No matter, I told myself. Allah would reward me in some other way. I kept thinking of a hadith in which the Prophet, sal-Allahu alayhi wa-sallam, said that if you trust in Allah, he will feed you as he feeds the birds. They go out every morning hungry, and return with their bellies full.
I first read that hadith as a teenager and it has been echoing in my head ever since, demanding that I pay attention and live my life accordingly. Give up your attachment to material things, it says. Stop obsessing over the accumulation of wealth. Stop thinking that anything you do provides true security, and understand that security comes only from Allah. That hadith reminds me of the Prophets and sahabah, because that’s how they lived. There might be people who came after the sahabah who prayed and fasted more than them. But there’s never been a generation who abandoned the dunya the way they did.
The thing is, it’s very difficult to trust so completely, and so I have always felt conflicted about it.
Thinking about these things, I ate the last bite of food and took out my address book. Time to call up some of my former insurance company clients and see what I could scare up. Allah helps those who help themselves.
The bread and butter of my practice was busting fake injury claims. It paid the bills, but just barely. Living on the edge of each billing cycle was wearing me down. And the work was tiresome. I couldn’t count how many nights I’d spent sitting in a dark car with a camera in my lap, waiting and watching, drinking one coffee after another to stay awake.
Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if I had someone to come home to, or if I were earning enough to save for the future. “He will feed you as he feeds the birds”, my subconscious whispered. “Yes”, my stubborn heart answered, “but I live in this world.”
I was thirty years old and had little to show for my life. I’d purchased a mobile home for cash after completing a lucrative job two years ago. I rented it out and earned a profit of two hundred per month after costs. I had a dream of buying another one every six months and becoming the mobile home king of Fresno.
So far, though, the dream was turning out to be little more than a fantasy. I was running in place like a caged mouse on a wheel, exhausting myself to catch the bit of cheese that the world dangled in front of me.
I almost laughed when I thought this, since I was literally eating a bit of cheese. I supposed I was caged as well, though the cage was now the size of a planet and the length of this terse and transitory life.
I sighed. At least I had Hajar. If nothing else, my beautiful girl was a treasure beyond value.
Sometimes I imagined that the government needed volunteers for a space mission to a newly discovered planet. The volunteers would spend five hundred years in stasis and wake up to find themselves on a world light years away. Everyone they ever knew would be dead. A strange future lay ahead of them: pioneers on a new world. Life would be hard – they’d have to forge a community from the hardscrabble soil of an alien world – but it would also be full of promise and adventure. A man would have the opportunity to tame the wild frontier, to set foot in virgin forests and climb mountains never seen by the human eye.
We men needed that opportunity to challenge nature, to put our lives on the line and struggle for survival. It was a vital part of the male makeup, but it no longer had a place in modern life.
I would sign up for that mission in a heartbeat, if only I could take Hajar with me. Forget Safaa and her hard heart. I’d take my daughter and wake up to find everything changed, whether for good or bad I didn’t care, as long as it was different. As for my unforgiving wife, I would miss her, but she would be five hundred years gone – just a part of history.
Other times I had the same fantasy, but when the time came to board the spaceship I turned back, unable to imagine a life without Safaa, for her warmth was the sun toward which my face turned. I would trade half my life to hold her again. I would claim the nightmares in my head, the ghosts of my youth on Gettysburg Avenue, the chest-breaking loneliness of prison, the years in cold and hot cells, and the meaninglessness. I’d carry it all like a beast, if I could hold her for an hour, or a minute, one more time in my ragged life.
As I was thus pitying myself and harboring pointless fantasies, the bell on the front door jingled again and another white man – an odd enough fact in this neighborhood that was ninety five percent Hispanic and Asian – came strolling in. I knew immediately that he was a street person. If his appearance hadn’t alerted me, the smell would have. He wore torn jeans, sneakers without laces, and a dirty yellow sweatshirt two sizes too large. Dirt was smeared on his forehead and nose, and the grime under his fingernails and in the seamed skin of his hands looked as ancient as Mississippi mud. As for the smell, he might have gone on a tour of the world to find the dirtiest public toilet, miniaturized it and brought it in with him.
I didn’t hold any of that against him. Life was hard on the street. Without money, without washing machines and dryers, without handy toilet facilities and showers, without even running water or electricity, any man or woman would be reduced to the same state as this one. I knew that, and I thanked Allah for the roof over my head, however meager it was. Like the Quran says, “Then which of the favors of your Lord will you deny?”
The man wheeled in an old bicycle and set a bulging black plastic bag on the floor. It made a clanking noise when it hit the ground.
“Whoa!” I pointed at the door. “Beat it, Ghost Rider. I’m not buying. I have a bit of old bread and cheese in the fridge.” I indicated the mini fridge in the corner. “You can have it if you’re hungry.”
“Nah, I’m cool my man,” he said. “Just trying to sell some of these solar garden lamps I got. You wanna see?”
Two or three times a day junkies came through my door trying to sell stolen goods. They’d offer phones, cameras, bicycles, hubcaps, jewelry, musical instruments, vacuum cleaners – whatever they could get their hands on. One guy tried to sell me three ten-foot lengths of copper pipe.
My answer was always no. I didn’t buy stolen goods, both to stay out of trouble and because I didn’t need the bad karma.
Gesturing to indicate my small office, I said, “Not exactly the gardens of Versailles. I need solar lamps like I need a broken leg. Now if you don’t mind, this is a place of business. You can let yourself out.”
“Alright alright.” The man scanned the interior of my small office as if looking for booby traps or hidden surveillance bugs. “But listen here, my man. You a private defective, right?”
I considered correcting him, but on the whole the statement seemed accurate, so I let it stand. After all, what part of my life was not falling apart? I sometimes felt like a car running on bald tires and one cylinder.
“So I got a preposition. You know the Powerball is way up there man, it’s like a billion smackers. You defeck the number, like how you do. What your system is. You gimme the number, and when I win I cut you in for ten percent. That’s a boatload of money, my man.”
I snorted. “If I could, uhh, defect the number, why would I give to you? Why wouldn’t I just win it myself and keep all the money?”
“Well, ‘cause that would be like one of them conflick a’ interest.”
“Not interested.” I pointed to the door with both hands, my fingers in the shapes of guns. “Adios.”
Still muttering about the Powerball, the guy let himself out, leaving behind a cloud of body odor like the emissions of a chemical factory.
The Powerball was one of the games of the California lottery, a state-sponsored racket that was supposed to funnel cash to the education system but didn’t do much except take food money out of poor people’s pockets as far as I could see. American kids were still failing on standardized tests, and our schools still ranked among the lowest in the developed world.
I had indeed read in the Fresno Bee – our local newspaper – that the Powerball had reached stratospheric levels. Apparently to win the Powerball you had to match six numbers exactly. If they drew the winning number and no one matched, it would run for another cycle, with the amount of the winnings continuing to increase.
The jackpot was so high that I’d even heard a few Muslims at the masjid talking about buying in. One brother said that he would donate half the winnings to help Muslims around the world. “Is that so bad?” he argued. “Take the money from the kuffar and use it for the Ummah.”
I’m no shaykh, but I know that the Quran describes intoxicants and gambling as abominations of Shaytan.
What does it mean, then, that American life is inundated with these ills? You can’t walk twenty meters down the street in this neighborhood without encountering an establishment that sells liquor and lottery tickets.
What does it mean that half of those stores are owned by Arabs? Instead of being representatives of Islam and agents of hope in these poverty stricken neighborhoods, we’ve become agents of despair, enriching ourselves by selling Shaytan’s goods. What hope is there for our future as Muslims, spiritually and as a community, if we pile on to the mountain of misery in poor neighborhoods?
Thinking these thoughts, I raised the window blinds, unlocked the padlock that secured the vertical steel bars on the window, and opened the window, wincing at the traffic noise that came washing through the screen. I usually kept my windows closed to keep out the dust and noise of the street, but I needed to air the place out after the homeless man’s visit.
Standing there, looking out the window at the people who milled in front of the burrito truck, wolfing down breakfast burritos stuffed with scrambled eggs, potatoes and chiles, I asked myself what my plan was. I’d been a private investigator for two years, and it was hard going. I knew that I was getting better at it, slowly learning the tricks of the trade. My client base was growing. Still, the work was irregular. There were times when I was flush, and others when no work came in for weeks.
In the meantime, I had a duty to my family. Safaa had bills to pay, and Hajar was a growing child with all the needs that entailed. Though I loved being my own boss – after six years in prison it was liberating not to have anyone ordering me about – I asked myself for the thousandth time if it was time to get a straight job and give up this insecure and sometimes dangerous line of work. My status as an ex-convict limited my employment options, but maybe I could go back to driving a taxi, which was what I’d done for the first three years after getting out of the joint. The pay wasn’t great, and there was no future in it, but at least it was steady. Or maybe I could try working in retail, or at a fast food restaurant.
“Ya Allah,” I said out loud. “I really need a hand here.”
Speaking the words brought on a rush of emotion, like a speeding train pulling into a station. In my case the destination list on the front of the train read, “Desperation – Loneliness – Surrender.” My face grew hot and my eyes stung. “I can’t do this without you, Ya Allah. Please.”
Well, I thought. Allah helps those who help themselves. A man gets up in the morning and does the work, and Allah lends a hand.
I learned many things about myself in prison. One is that surrender is not in my nature. The entire world could tell me I’m worthless, I’m not needed or wanted, I’m a loser with no future, and the paths to success and happiness are closed to me. The world could tell me my race is inferior and – as they told the Prophet, sal-Allahu alayhi wa sallam – my religion is wrong. The world could tell me I’m all alone, without allies or friends, with no one who loves me and no reason to live.
The world could tell me all of this, and I would stand tall and reply without hesitation that I am a child of a noble race, for we carry the Quran and survive the sand and burning sun. I would say that dignity is the property of my heart and no one can take it away; that freedom is my birthright and happiness my destiny; that I have as much of a place in this universe as the trees and the stars; and that I have never been alone or friendless, not for one moment, because Allah has always been by my side, even in the darkest isolation cells.
As I was thinking this, the bell on the door chimed again, and the Anwars entered my office. Seeing the Anwars enter through my door, I could not have been more surprised if it had been Barack and Michelle Obama dressed in evening wear and top hats. That was the moment everything changed for me, for better and for worse, though I did not know it at the time.
Dr. Ehab Anwar and his wife Farah were old friends of my parents. I had not spoken to them in eleven years, since before I went to prison for robbery at the age of nineteen. More accurately, they had not spoken to me. In fact, Farah Anwar had been instrumental in ostracizing me from the local Palestinian-American community. She made sure everyone, including new arrivals, knew about my past, and made it clear that she considered me a bad influence on the community youth.
As a result I was never invited to community dinners, Eid picnics, barbecues at the park, or even the birthday parties of the children of my childhood friends.
I wasn’t whining. I couldn’t care less what these people thought of me.
Okay, maybe that wasn’t true. Maybe it hurt on some level. And it hurt that my parents continued their friendship with the Anwars, even occasionally hosting dinner parties to which I was not invited. It wounded me that even my mother bought into the communal judgment of my character. It hurt that they didn’t stand up for me.
Oh, I was welcome in my parents’ home when no one else was around, and they loved me in their way, but I knew that my mother in particular would never again trust me fully, no matter how much time passed. Her image of me as a sweet, intelligent and good-hearted boy had been shattered forever. I had shamed her before her friends, and for that I would never be forgiven.
Whatever. Let them all live in their sealed-off judgmental bubble. I had good friends, mostly Muslim converts to whom my past was irrelevant. There was also brother Saleem, and one or two Palestinian-Americans of my own generation – like Aziz – who continued their friendship with me privately, despite their parents’ disapproval. And my non-Muslim friends. Well, friend, really, since there was only one – my childhood buddy Titus, who was now a cop.
Also, my cousins in Madera still talked to me. Nabeel and his hot-blooded older sister Jamilah, who was passionate about Palestinian causes and quick to anger when anyone disagreed, were good people. Nabeel was still in college, and Jamilah had recently moved to San Francisco and become a bike messenger, of all things. I loved her like a sister, but I was happy that at least someone in the family besides me was failing to live up to expectations. Just kidding about that. Sort of.
The Anwars themselves, however – they would, I’m sure, have been happier if I’d remained in prison, or settled somewhere else after my release.
All of which explained why I was so utterly surprised to find them standing before me.
Dr. Ehab Anwar was the eldest of my parents’ circle of friends, though you couldn’t tell it by looking at him. I knew his age because whenever I asked my mother why she accepted the Anwars’ shaming of me in the community, she would sidestep the question by saying, “Do you know Dr. Ehab is over eighty years old? Ma-sha-Allah he is like a man of sixty.”
Standing before me now, the man did indeed look younger than his age. He was thin and rather short at 5’6”, but stood with a straight back. His brown eyes were red-rimmed and haggard, but sharply intelligent. Though he wore an olive green flat cap, I knew that he still had most of his hair, and it wasn’t even all gray yet. He wore brown dress slacks, brown leather shoes, and a brown corduroy jacket to ward off the February chill. In one hand he held a brown leather satchel with two outside pockets. It looked expensive.
He could afford it. He founded a pest control company fifty years ago, helping Valley farmers control and eradicate infestations of insects, mites and nematodes. I actually worked for his company as a teenager, which was why I knew that a nematode was a kind of microscopic worm, and not a frog named Nema. I spent two summers trudging up and down almond and orange groves, first hanging sticky traps on the branches of trees, then collecting them a week later and examining them under a magnifying glass to count and catalogue the insects stuck to the traps. I remember working in Ramadan one summer, and being so thirsty that the water running in the farm ditch looked as tasty as fresh lemonade.
In the 1970’s Dr. Ehab had the foresight to buy empty land to the north and west of Fresno. When the city expanded in that direction he sold some of the land to developers, and leased other lots to large retailers. I remembered hearing that one of his first leases had been to Walmart for $25,000 per month. He later become a developer himself, building three huge apartment complexes in north Fresno.
The pest control company still existed, but was run by his brother’s grandson, while the leases and apartments were handled by a real estate management company. I didn’t know exactly how much the Anwars were worth, but it had to be in the tens of millions.
None of which impressed me.
“As-salamu alaykum,” Dr. Ehab Anwar said. He did not offer to shake my hand.
His wife Farah waved her hand in front of her nose and glared at me, apparently thinking that I was the source of the unpleasant smell in the office.
“Wa alaykum as-salam,” I replied coolly, my tone making it clear that I was not happy to see them. I returned to my desk and sat.
Farah dug him in the ribs with an elbow and said in a strident voice, “The boy is no good. It is a mistake coming here.”
Farah Anwar was a piece of work. Shorter than her husband and fifteen years younger, her voice was as sharp and piercing as a prison shank. Her nose was hooked like a falcon’s beak, her skin was pale like ivory, and her green eyes were as hard as chips of emerald. Though she wore a long skirt, a loose blouse and a cream-colored hijab, and though she volunteered as a weekend Islamic studies teacher at the masjid, I found nothing sisterly in her demeanor, nor had I ever.
I had another reason to resent Farah Anwar. I was fairly sure she had played a key role in breaking up my marriage.
Six months ago I’d been driving north on highway 99, tailing a subject in an insurance case, when I saw an accident take place before my eyes. A big 18 wheeler began to drift toward oncoming traffic. At the last second the truck jerked in the other direction and tipped over, jackknifing and sliding across three lanes of fast-moving traffic. I managed to stop in time, but a young woman driving a red VW Beetle did not. She plowed into the semi, and a moment later flames began to erupt from under her hood.
Two other cars had collided as well, but I had to prioritize. I parked on the median and ran to the burning Beetle. The airbag had deployed and the young woman was unconscious. With a shock, I realized I knew her. She was one of Safaa’s cousins, a girl named Karima who was studying business at Fresno State, if I remembered correctly.
Her door was locked and jammed. The front windshield was shattered and I considered sliding in through it, but the flames coming from under the hood were growing. I could feel the heat scorching my skin. I looked around frantically for emergency workers, but none had arrived. Two other drivers, a man and a woman, exited their cars and stood nearby, filming with their phones. I realized no one was going to do anything. I had to get Karima out myself.
I drew my pocket knife, grasped it tightly in my fist, and struck the driver’s side window as hard as I could with the butt of the blade. The glass shattered. I used the knife to slice through Karima’s seatbelt, then leaned in, grasped her under the arms, and hauled her out through the window. At 5’9” and 160 pounds I’m solidly built but not imposing. In that moment, though, Karima felt as light as a loaf of bread.
She began to come to consciousness as I hauled her away from the burning car. I carried her well off the highway to the grassy embankment and set her down gently. Other drivers had stopped and were helping the other accident victims, so I stayed with Karima. By the time the ambulances and fire trucks arrived she was fully awake.
In the following days, Karima became obsessed with me. She’d text me at various times throughout the day. The texts were innocuous, just wishes for me to have a good day or updates on her daily life at school. I never replied, but my wife Safaa was understandably annoyed. It escalated to Karima dropping by my office every other day with homemade cookies or sandwiches. I kept telling her it was inappropriate. She said she understood that I was married, but wanted to show her gratitude. She sent me a Facebook friend request; I declined. She’d call, I’d see her name on the caller ID and let it go to voicemail.
It became a serious problem between myself and Safaa. My wife was not an especially suspicious or jealous sort, but Karima was a beautiful young woman, with round eyes, a wide smile and long, lustrous black hair. I mean, Safaa is beautiful too of course, but… I’ll stop there, as I can’t see any intelligent conclusion to that thought. The point is, Safaa grew increasingly angry. I felt like I was trapped in a giant spider web. No matter what I said, it didn’t matter.
Finally I texted Karima to arrange a meeting. I intended to tell her definitively that she had to leave me alone. I could not be her hero or her friend. Maybe if she saw my frustration she would realize the harm she was doing. If she would not stop, I would secure a restraining order against her. I had to save my marriage, no matter what.
We agreed to meet at a coffee shop in Clovis. I arrived, parked, and exited my car, and the next thing I knew, Karima – who had arrived early – rushed toward me, embraced me and kissed me. I pushed her away angrily and looked up to see a few of the coffee shop patrons watching. Among them were two Arab ladies – a middle-aged hijabi I did not know, and Farah Anwar. Farah was staring at the scene with eagle eyes and a trace of a smile.
I had a sinking feeling in my stomach. I didn’t even try talking to her. What was the point? I delivered my message to Karima, telling her to stay out of my life, and returned home to find Safaa already putting my belongings on the doorstep.
Safaa later told me that after she kicked me out of the house, Farah visited her and told her she’d done the right thing. Farah urged her to seek sole custody of the children and to sue me for alimony. Safaa told Farah to get lost. “You might be a good-for-nothing cheater,” Safaa informed me over the phone, “but that woman derives entirely too much pleasure from it.”
If Safaa could understand that, then why couldn’t she understand that Farah was misrepresenting the entire incident? And why did Farah Anwar hate me so viscerally? What had I ever done to her?
I couldn’t understand women at all.
Dr. Ehab cleared his throat. “We want to hire you.”
I stared, flabbergasted. I felt a strange sensation rising in my chest and didn’t recognize it for what it was – hilarity – until my mouth opened and laughter burst forth. I reclined in my chair, closed my eyes and put my hands on my belly, letting the guffaws burst out of me like sonic fireworks.
When my laughter finally ebbed, I opened my eyes to see Dr. Ehab watching me grimly, though I imagined I detected a sheepish cast to his gaze. Farah stood with her arms at her sides and her fists balled, nearly trembling with rage.
“I’m sorry,” I said, rubbing my cheek. “Really. That just came out. Anyway I’m not taking any new cases right now.” I gestured toward the door. ”You can show yourselves out.”
This was foolish of me, I knew. I needed the money desperately, and unlike the casino case there would be nothing haram in working for the Anwars. But these people looked upon me with contempt. I would rather be reduced to eating grass than work for them.
Farah snatched the leather satchel out of her husband’s hands, withdrew from it a thick manila envelope, and threw it onto my desk. It made a dull thud like a rare steak – again. Why did all the money have to sound like steaks today?
“There is ten thousand dollars,” she said with a sneer. “Does that change your mind?”
“Farah…” Dr Ehab said, putting a restraining hand on her arm. “This is not the way.”
SubhanAllah, I thought. This was crazy. Just a little while ago I’d turned down an envelope containing five thousand dollars, and placed my trust in Allah to give me something better. I just didn’t think it would happen as fast as a pizza delivery. Now here was twice the amount I’d turned away. What was going on today? Was Allah sending me a message? Was this a test?
I didn’t have the answers to those questions, but even were I a destitute beggar, I would not take money thrown at me in derision. To work for these two would be to surrender my dignity and self-respect.
If you’re thinking that I’m too proud and stubborn for my own good, and that I probably deserve to be broke and hungry, I don’t deny it. But if you’re thinking that I’m too proud and stubborn for someone with my background – that, considering my past, I should be meek and humble and apologetic – then you have the wrong guy. I don’t do meek and ashamed. The meek might inherit the earth, but I am who I am. I made the mistakes I made, and they are in the past. My sins are between me and Allah. Anyone who wants to deal with me can do so based on who I am now, in this moment.
Okay, maybe I have a chip on my shoulder. But it’s my chip, and I’ll enjoy it with guacamole dip, California style.
Here’s the thing. If I’ve learned one thing in life, it’s that a man is nothing without his dignity. You have to be able to look at yourself in the mirror at the end of the day and not cringe at what you see. Didn’t the Messenger of Allah, sal-Allahu-alayhi-wa-sallam, say, “The religion is sincerity”? What is sincerity if not respect – respect for Allah, for people, and for oneself? How could I take the Anwars’ money and still respect myself?
“I wouldn’t work for you if my life depended on it,” I said.
“You are a cruel boy!” Farah shouted. She tugged on her husband’s arm. “Let’s go. I told you this is a waste of time. There is no need for any of this. The girl will show up later or sooner.”
Dr. Ehab took the envelope. “Will you not hear what we need?”
“Nah. No point. Whatever you need, there are plenty of other P.I.s in town. Chris Rockland is quite good. His office is at Shaw and First.”
Farah stepped in front of her husband and jabbed her finger at my face. “You are a shame on the community! I don’t know how your poor parents put up with you. You are worthless. You deserve to lose your family and never see them again. This is all your fault in the beginning!” Spittle flew from her mouth as she ranted.
I felt like I was watching a rabid dog. Would she leap over the desk and bite me?
“How is it my fault?” I didn’t know what she was talking about and shouldn’t have taken the bait, but I couldn’t help it.
“You corrupted Tarek! If not for you, he would not have associated with that dirty girl.”
I was baffled. Was that why she hated me so much? She thought that I was somehow responsible for her son’s train wreck of a life? Huh. The truth was just the opposite. Tarek, who was a year younger than me, had always been shiftless, even when we were kids. His eyes always wandered here and there, seeking a distraction or an answer to a question he hadn’t yet formulated. Some days we’d walk to school together and he would decide on the spot to skip classes. I’d try to convince him otherwise, but he’d wander off – I never knew to where. After he dropped out in eleventh grade, we didn’t see much of each other.
I could see, though, how a distraught mother, looking for someone to blame for her son’s mistakes, might latch on to me. I’d been her son’s friend and I’d gone to prison, so I must have – one might reason – influenced Tarek in some way.
Actually, Tarek was clueless about my illegal activities back then. On the surface, I’d been a model college student and Muslim. And yes, I know how hypocritical that makes me sound.
Dr. Ehab pulled his wife aside and spoke sternly. “Farah, be quiet. Let me talk to him.”
“No. Let’s leave this good-for-nothing to his smelly office.”
Dr. Ehab glared at his wife and raised his voice, biting off each word. “Be – quiet!”
Farah blanched in shock. I was pretty surprised too. I’d never seen Dr. Ehab angry before. The man I remembered from my teenage years was a milquetoast, so soft spoken that I’d had to strain to make out his words.
When I was younger and first started working for the pest control company I made a serious mistake. When we hung traps we always mapped the farm first and assigned every tree a number, so that when we collected the traps later we knew precisely which tree each trap had come from. The first time I was assigned to collect the traps, I gathered all the traps from a ten acre grove without noting the tree numbers, which meant that a week’s worth of data was lost. Even then Dr. Ehab did not get angry. He merely patted my shoulder and said, “Next time, don’t rush. Patience is silver.”
Now, when he stood before me nearly shouting at his wife, I was taken aback. She gaped at him, then stalked off, slamming the door hard enough to rattle the door frame.
Dr. Ehab turned to me. “This matter is important to us. We need someone with a personal connection. Someone we can trust.”
My mouth fell open in astonishment. “Someone you can trust? Have you treated me like someone you could trust?” I put up my hands. “I don’t – I don’t even know what to say.”
“I know you should hate us,” Ehab said. “If the need was for me, I would not ask.” He ran a hand across his forehead, closing his eyes. Then he reached into his jacket pocket, took out a 4” by 6” photo and handed it to me.
“She has been kidnapped,” he said. “We need you to find her. Please, I beg you. The ten thousand is only an advance. I will pay fifty thousand if you get her home.”
I recognized the girl in the photo right away. Her name was Anna. She was the Anwars’ granddaughter. My friend Tarek’s daughter.
I had told the Anwars that I would not work for them if my life depended on it. This was someone else’s life, however. That changed everything.