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Sex & the Ummah: Child Molestation in the Muslim World- Myth or Reality? Part I


Part I | Part II- A/B | Part II- C/D | Part III | Part IV-A | Part IV-B | Part V

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Child Molestation in Muslim World- Myth or Reality? Part I

He was coming to her house again. Little Noreen’s heart skipped a beat; her legs froze. She looked around.  Everyone was busy, but she couldn’t find anything to do to distract her thoughts. She wanted to hide. She wanted to run. She knew the ritual of his visit; his eyes staring her down, the evil lecherous smile on his face which only she could see while the rest of the family saw as the expression of a loving elder relative.

Once the family got busy talking, he would take Noreen into a room, and force her to do things she never knew could be done. Sometimes he forced his hands inside her clothes and touched her private areas. No one had ever talked to her about her body parts, but she could feel it wasn’t right. Sometimes, when he wanted to be touched, he forced her hands inside his pants. Her little hands would shake, her body would tremble, but how could she refuse? She was very young, 5, perhaps 6 and very scared. She knew something was wrong. She shouldn’t be doing this, she shouldn’t be here. She wanted to scream but he put his hand on her mouth; she wanted to run to her mother, but he put a sharp knife on her neck threatening to kill her if she ever said a word to anyone.

This hadn’t happened just once. As he built his confidence, he started having his private meetings with her more often. Sometimes he would even tie her hands, and sometimes he would even tape her mouth so he could take total advantage of his hands and hers. In almost each meeting, there was something new; there was something different. He advanced from touching to kissing to hugging; at times with clothes and at times without clothes. He forced her to engage orally with him, and he showed her how to touch herself in a perverse way [masturbation]; he made her experience everything, only stopping at rape. He had full access to her whenever and wherever he wanted. And why wouldn’t he?

He was her mother’s nephew; her own elder cousin. After a few incidents the little child gathered up her courage and tried to tell her mother.

If we were to bet on one person to jump into a burning house to save her/his children, who would it be? Most of us would bet on a mother.

Little Naureen approached her mother with a trembling body, and fear in her eyes. She took little steps towards her mother the person who was her source of security and protection. She wanted to confide in her mother and find solace. Her mouth felt dry as she talked, gulping down her sobs, but when she looked up at her mother, hoping to be hugged and comforted, her world was shattered by her mother’s utter disbelief! She felt as if she was under the scorching sun, with no roof above her for shade against the burning heat.  She was alone, oh so alone in a home full of her very own. Where else could she go? Whom else could she turn to when her own mother blamed her of imagining things, things that the little girl could not even have known about?

Dear readers, this is not a fictional story. This is the reality of a woman, now living in America, who was once this little girl in Pakistan. And it is not the reality of just one girl; this has been happening to many little girls. According to Sahil, an NGO (non-governmental organization akin to a non-profit in the States) in Pakistan, there are 5.4 cases of molestation reported per day. And these are only the REPORTED cases, and as we could imagine, the vast majority of cases remain unreported, thus likely many fold more. Why unreported? Because, generally speaking, Muslims are in denial about this phenomenon. And the denial emanates from how far the true practice of Islam is from this evilest of practices.

Surprised? Don\’t be. I had a hard time believing it when I first encountered sisters in such situations. I thought that these heinous acts only happen in non-Muslim societies. How could Muslims do such a thing? But, I was oblivious of how widespread this evil was within my very own Muslim world, where Muslim men victimize their own blood relatives, especially the little timid girls among them. I tried to assure myself that mothers similar to the mother of Naureen’s, were rare. I definitely had a lot to learn.


The purpose of this series of articles is to advise Muslim parents around the world to be cautious, to offer help to the victims of this abuse, and to offer suggestions to the family members of those victims.

Additionally, Sister Haleh Banani (who has a Masters in Clinical Psychology) will assist me in offering help to the sisters here. If my fellow sisters, who have been victims of this abuse, or continue to be victims today, are scared and do not have cooperating families, please put your questions and comments here, and inshaAllah we will respond and offer help in whatever way possible. If you do leave a comment that is of personal nature, make sure you do not disclose your name (i.e. leave the comment with an anonymous name), but DO leave a valid email so we are able to contact you inshaAllah.

This series of articles will be divided into following categories:

I. Molesters

The following links, when available, will open up separate posts:

II. Victims and Their Struggles

Throughout the article, I will be using true stories of various sisters. Rest assured that the names have been changed, but I have tried to leave the stories as uncensored as possible.


A. Who are the Molesters:

1. Victims Themselves?
Although there is a popular belief that most male molesters were victims themselves in their childhood, this assertion doesn’t hold water with scientific evidence. It may be true in some cases, but cannot be generalized for all situations. According to this research, sometimes molesters are molesters just because that is who they are.

2. Family and Friends:
In nearly all cases, the molester is either a family member or a close family acquaintance. In the case of all the victims that I have dealt with, the molesters were close relatives, including cousins, uncles, and even grandfathers, iyyadhobillah.

It is much easier for the molesters to molest their own family members or the children of close friends, than to find prey elsewhere. They are trusted by family members and friends; hence the odds of getting caught or being doubted are very low. Besides, it is easier to gain access to the child. Most of the victims who entrusted me with their horrific stories, were molested by family members who visited frequently. That is why these girls were not only repeatedly molested, but when these girls tried to confide in an elder, they wouldn’t believe them.

It must also be noted that the molester, very astutely, observes the child-parent relationship. In many cases, the victims are children who don’t have a close and frank relationship with their parents (I will discuss this in more detail inshaAllah).

B. How and When the Molesters Attack:

1. Best time and Place:
Apparently, molesters do not need extra time or any special place to attack their prey.

Mona was a 6-7 year old, growing up in America. She was molested in the car by her maternal uncle, who was several years elder to her mother. Her uncle had taken her family shopping and had dropped them at a store while he waited in the parking lot. The little girl stayed behind with her uncle. He asked her to come sit on the front passenger seat. This little girl, without even thinking twice, jumped to the front seat, like any niece would have done. He first started touching Mona on her chest, then slipping his hands inside her shirt, and then into her trousers. He did all this, while intently staring at her, to take note of her reaction. Mona pleaded with him to stop, but he only stopped when he was satisfied. The little terrified girl ran inside the store to her family, totally in shock.

These wretched people don\’t even wait for a specific place or time. They attack when least expected. The time and place is so opportunistic and unlikely that even when the victims report the abuse, they are not believed.

We just left you in the car for a few minutes, how could it have happened to you in a public parking lot. Stop making up stories about my respected brother, just to get some attention.

2. Short and Quick
As I said, they don\’t need extra time to attack. By choosing a family member, many matters are made easy by taking advantage of family traditions.

Mona\’s uncle also took advantage of the family tradition of kissing foreheads. At times a simple peck on the forehead would become a complete lip-lock, iyyadhobillah. Had she told her mother, her uncle would have just laughed it off and changed the topic.

To be continued…


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Saba Syed (aka Umm Reem) is the author of International award winning novel, "An Acquaintance." Saba has a BA degree in Islamic Studies. She studied Arabic Language & Literature at Qatar University and at Cairo Institute in Egypt. She also received her Ijaazah in Quranic Hafs recitation in Egypt from Shaikh Muhammad al-Hamazawi. She had been actively involved with Islamic community since 1995 through her MSA, and then as a founding member of TDC, and other community organizations. in 2002, she organized and hosted the very first "Musim Women's Conference" in Houston, TX. Since then, she's been passionately working towards empowering Muslim women through the correct and untainted teachings of Islam. She is a pastoral counselor for marriage & family, women and youth issues. She has hosted several Islamic lectures and weekly halaqas in different communities all over U.S and overseas, also hosted special workshops regarding parenting, Islamic sex-ed, female sexuality, and marital intimacy.



  1. mohammed

    February 16, 2009 at 2:15 AM

    Inna Lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji’un…May Allah help us. These pigs should be slaughtered for such acts as an example for others if ever caught….May Allah reward you for bringing this topic up

    • another one

      December 5, 2010 at 10:22 AM

      Assalaamu Alaykum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuh.

      First of all, sis, jazakillahu khayran for writing this article. I think it is a good way of a lot of victims letting out their frustration, fear and anxiety — even though it is as an anonymous for many. At the same time it help a lot of us who have gone through this, feel better and get over it, and gain a closure through reading others’ stories as well.

      As someone who was molested as a child, here are a few tips i can think of…..

      1) PARENTS, PLEASE, PLS PLZ: I know in a lot of Indian/Pak cultures, parents have a tendency to keep their children in their bedrooms until the age of 5+ —–> DON’T especially if you want to be intimate with your spouse. You don’t know what they might see and remember and try to re-enact with other children
      2) TEACH your children that they shouldn’t touch themselves, let others touch them, and that they should not touch others as well.
      3) TELL them that if anything ever happens that they don’t like, they should tell you — and YOU as a parent should BELIEVE THEM.
      4) ALWAYS be AWARE of your children, especially when you’re at arger gatherings
      5) DONT IGNORE stuff you think is not right. If you sense something is out of place, it probaby is. Children by nature are a lot more truthful and honest than adults. They would never lie about this stuff. Heck, THEY are INNOCENT!
      6) OFFER SUPPORT, and make sure your child knows that you DID something about the SITUATION! Help them get over it! As an example, i never felt comfortable around my brothers or father for ages, because a few men over the years had molested me over the years. A lot of times, the child wants to talk about it LET THEM KNOW IT WAS NOT THEIR FAULT THIS HAPPENED
      7) Let you child know, that this has nothing to do with Islam. It’s an individualistic problem.
      8 ) Let your child know its NOT OK to watch naked people.
      9) PRAY to ALLAH to protect your child from BEING MOLESTED OR BEING THE MOLESTOR
      10) i cant think of any more points right now… but feel free to add onto this list.

      • Dee

        December 4, 2016 at 1:06 PM

        Thank you for this. I myself was molested when I was 12-15. As an Arabian girl I myself was sheltered and innocent as well. I could not speak about it and during the year the main part of molestation happened I peed myself and sleep walked alot. I hope that Allah will never forgive those who do this to children or anyone for that matter.

    • noor

      June 6, 2011 at 12:59 AM

      astugfirullah!, i totatly agree with Mohammad. and again ty for sharing this with us, May ALLAH reward you fr bringing this to us AMEEN

  2. UmmeAmmaarah

    February 16, 2009 at 2:55 AM

    Assalamu-alaikum sister. It makes you so queasy, but it happens pretty often. I have heard of not one, but quite a few such episodes taking place even in settings where you would consider it unimaginable. Mu’allims who would come home to teach girls to read the Qur’an, and molest them, little girls who went to mosques to study and were molested, and in India, every few days there are reports in the newspapers of drunken fathers molesting their daughters. According to what i’ve seen around, relatives/friends who seem exceptionally affectionate and physical are very often the perpetrators of this sickness. Parents need to realize that they need to be very vigilant and careful, and that it is NOT ok to leave kids at somebody’s/anybody’s place so casually, especially when the only supervising adult will be a member of the opposite sex. I think, at a point of time when parents feel that they will not be the only one supervising their child, they should educate their children in an appropriate way about abuse, and be very perceptive to a child’s reactions. Several years ago in India, i had come across a poster in a children’s newspaper supplement that i thought hit the nail on the head without being too graphic.. i searched it and did find an e-archive link… not all of it is about ‘sexual’ abuse, and you might have to strain your eyes to read it, but i think it is pretty neat, suitable for even young children and maybe we can make one of our own like it. Here’s the link –

    • Sara Khan

      December 17, 2010 at 2:34 AM

      Very good advice. Thank you. I have emailed you privately too.

  3. abu abdAllah Tariq Ahmed

    February 16, 2009 at 4:03 AM

    subhanAllah. after they have died, adult zaanis who were not punished in this life will burn in an oven with other zaanis. the oven’s walls will slope in as they go up. the zaanis will pull each other down as they try to escape the heat. their skin and flesh will burn away utterly only to be restored so that their agony can repeat over and over again until Allah Decrees otherwise for them. RasoolAllah sull Allaho alayhi wa sallam was shown this punishment in a true dream in which he was also shown the punishments for the one who spreads lies about others that are wide publicized, and for the one who consumes ribaa.

    can you imagine how much worse must be the punishment of these adults who molest children? when the punishment i just recounted is for consenting adults, the perverts who commit these crimes against children will surely find a special part of hell that awaits them.

    subhanAllah. no wonder the chief of the 19 angels who watch over hell is grim.

    jazak Allah khayr for this series of articles. mashaAllah, the picture/banner is powerful. much time needs to be spent, too, on promulgating solutions to these problems. and much care needs to be taken not to malign indiscriminately and generally. for example, in too many places i have read Muslims discredit schools of hifdh with slanderous accusations. crimes should be punished, and among criminals is the one who slanders.

  4. Sadaf

    February 16, 2009 at 6:03 AM

    Assalamu Alaikum Umm Reem.
    Glad to see a piece from you. Jazakillahu khairan for bringing up this topic, and for providing research based on real-life experiences. I am also grateful to you for not mincing your words, because some careless mothers need to know outright how these things happen, and they should be wary of leaving their daughters with anyone. Might I also add, that even sons are not safe from such molesters either. There are so many ways a young boy can be abused as well….may Allah save every child on earth from such predators.
    We have to protect and educate both our sons and daughters about these situations, and some things should be drilled in to them as a no-no from the start. E.g the biggest no-no I am teaching my children (who are still very, very young) from toddlerhood, is to NEVER take off their underpants/lower garment, or go to the toilet, in full view of anyone besides their mother. This might sound very extreme, and I have received criticism for it from close female relatives (because particularly in our culture, it is not uncommon to see toddlers in our homes roam around with their lower halves totally bare) , especially since I refuse to change my baby’s/toddler’s diaper (girl or boy) in a place where anyone else can look. Basically, I am ingraining an acute sense of “haya” into them since this very early stage, so that my kids will know which body part can never, ever be uncovered before others besides their mother. Secondly, I know that there are predators out there who can get into severe fitnah by just viewing a child’s bare pelvis (girl or boy) – so I do my part in taking as much care as possible. May Allah protect our children. Ameen.
    My Internet experience since the past decade has just strengthened this intrinsic maternal protective instinct – the prevalence of child pornography, pedophelia and the existence of “teen” sites are a disgusting reminder to any rational parent that our children are not safe, at ANY age. The mother HAS to instill the rule into her child, that no one, NO ONE, can view them without clothes or touch them in anyway. Period. And this tarbiyah should be part of childrens’ upbringing from the start.
    I also want to narrate an incident of a girl who was almost molested, before she ran off (she told me about it years later). She had gone to a neighbor’s house to play. The neighbors had a 12 year old son and a younger sister – this 7-8 year old girl had gone to play with the sister. The latter went somewhere (it was a big house), and the brother locked the door and said, “Let’s play doctor, doctor. You be my patient. I’ll give you an injection.” He then proceeded to try to convince her to let him give her an “injection” you-know-where, when she stretched out her arm. She refused repeatedly and demanded that he open the door, which he did, and she ran out. She was bold enough to take a stand, because the guy was still himself a child. Another friend of mine had a similar experience at a wedding ceremony (mehndi) in which she was 8 years old and playing hide and seek with other children. When all the kids ran off to hide, one guy, a teenager in his early teens, ran up the stairs of an apartment block with her, to hide. They were alone, and he asked her to touch him you-know-where. She refused and ran off.
    This shows that children have an intrinsic sense of danger; a warning bell that goes off in their heads which makes them run. These incidents also prove that even older children are not always safe to hang around (i.e. it’s not just adults who pose risks).

    • solitaybird

      June 26, 2014 at 10:08 AM

      Jazaki Allahu khair, that’s great, because even though a lot of people aren’t aware of this, even women (mothers, even!) molest children.

      It’s disgusting that it has come to this, where we have to instill a quasi-sense of hayah into innocent children who still cannot comprehend these because their brains have yet to finish developing, all of this is honestly beyond their understanding for the most part.

      But that’s what we have to do in this day and age… but please, never blame your children for anything that might happen to them, always remember that children cannot and will not fully understand the dangers and implications of this. The blame should rest on the shoulders of the perpetrators, not the victims.

  5. Haifa

    February 16, 2009 at 8:19 AM

    Excellent subject, sister. It’s time Muslim communities sat up and realized the very real presence of such a monstrosity.

    When will the other parts be posted?

    Thank you =)

  6. Anonymous

    February 16, 2009 at 8:57 AM

    Assalam’ullaikum….as a young child of 10 when I was visiting my home country I had not one not two but three cousins of my mother molest me. They must have been in their mid twenties at the time. Two of them were brothers and the third was a cousin to them. My guess is that they all had done that because they must have divulged in their secret to one another. I was a VERY shy timid girl who they knew was not going to tell my mother. One would take me to his room, lay me on his bed and start kissing me on my mouth but nothing beyond that. I found out through another 10 year old cousin of mine who actually lived there that he used to do that to her all the time. The other two (the brothers) used to take me to an empty room somewhere in the house and have me sit in their laps and occupy me with idle chit chat. Then usually a hand would slip into my pants and fondle me. I was too nervous to tell me mother, not because I feared she would not believe me but because I knew she loved her family and these cousins. I felt like I did not want to break her heart. It has been years later and I still have not told me mom because two of them have passed away and their accountability is with Allah. What I have learned is the sheer importance of educating my daughter. THanks so much for posting this piece. May Allah swt protect all our children from the likes of people like them.

  7. Osman

    February 16, 2009 at 9:26 AM


    Unfortunately such cases seem to be on the rise. My wife is a social worker and she deals with such cases. The first thing she tells mothers are, “You MUST believe your child.” That is what many parents fail to do when they hear such. Some poor children continue to be abused for years till they summon the courage to bring it up to their mothers/parents only to be rebuked.

  8. Organica

    February 16, 2009 at 9:42 AM

    Umm Reem.


    Standing Ovation from me right now.

    Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for addressing this topic.

  9. Anonymous

    February 16, 2009 at 9:48 AM

    It’s good to see this issue is being raised among more conservative elements of the Muslim community. I wish these articles could be translated into Arabic and Urdu. Alarmed by the rampant abuse and pederasty in a Muslim muhaajir community where we used to live overseas, one of the women tried to educate the mothers to empower the children to say “No” and tell their parents. She was called a Shaytan who was out to ruin the fitra of the children by introducing “deviant sex” to them. This experience was all the more frustrating because this was an enclave of pretty well educated Westerners and local elites. People who made hijrah for the sake of Allah who could afford Mercedes, but not the price of facing the truth about social ills in the Muslim world.

    Three months later, a girl reported being molested by the trusted, dear, beloved Quran teacher. And that’s just the one that told. One local boy who had been abused told a social worker “It’s a rite of passage. We just learn to accept it.”

    Who are the shayateen… who are ruining the fitra?

  10. Yasir Qadhi

    February 16, 2009 at 10:20 AM

    Salaam Alaikum

    Jazaki Allah Umm Reem for bringing such matters to our attention.

    Unfortunately I have a lot of stories regarding molestations too. It is a hidden secret that lurks in almost every extended family.

    There are two major problems as I see it (and I know you’ll address both of them!)

    1) Kids themselves many times don’t know what to do. They are embarrassed, confused, terrified. Obviously they are simply not prepared to undergo such traumatic experiences. It’s sad but the situation dictates that we educate our kids about matters that their innocent ears should not be hearing.

    2) Parents, when kids finally do approach them, never believe this can be true. They’d rather believe a six year old has the imagination to *invent* such graphic tales rather than lay blame on a family member. And rejection by parents further alienates such kids.

    I have met victims of molestation whose lives have been ruined because of both of the above factors; they are insecure in their lives and sexually incapable of fulfilling marital relations. Of course this is just one category. Others are able to overcome such experiences and move on with their lives.

    May Allah give us all strength to deal with these issues.

    • abedasghar

      May 6, 2010 at 3:21 PM

      Assalaamu Aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakaatuh

      I have had someone sexual molest me when I was about five or six years old. I would like to know the shar’ee ruling (punishment) on the one who carried out the crime, ( I was a boy and the criminal was an older teenage boy. He stopped before sodomy – wa lillahil hamd).

      What is strange is that I remember him as not being a religious person and neither was I. I didn’t know Allah or His Messenger even after my teenage years, but after the several occasions of him doing this act to me, approximately five years later he started becoming a stronger Muslim as to what was apparent, and left to jihad in the way of Allah… I didn’t think much of it at the time, but just a few years back, al hamdu lillah, I myself had been guided back to Islam. Ever since I have been implementing my religion and growing stronger in it, these memories have come back to me to haunt me. I’m trying to find it in me to forgive this individual but I simply cannot. I find myself wanting to go to jihad as well and die as a martyr, but the question is still burning in me is that what if I find him there? Even worse, what if Allah does not accept one of our shahadah’s… or neither of them? Should I forgive this person or implement the hadd on him since the place where I wish to make hijrah to are implementing the sharee’a in it’s entirety, al hamdulillah.

      The final question is; is it allowed for me to tell my close relative(s) about this incident that happened to me as a child or should I keep silent? I would like to add; my relative speaks highly of that young man who sexually abused me, calling him a brave man whom Allah guided, all the while recalling his merits and his willingness to die for the sake of Allah. This, quite obviously, burns a hole in my heart and makes me want to disclose all that I have hidden for many years.

      Assalaamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakaatuh, wa jazakum Allahu khaira

      • Sara Khan

        December 17, 2010 at 2:44 AM

        You should do what makes you feel at peace. Think of your self. Firstly tell someone close to you. Talk to your wife ect. To gain your inner peace, you might loose all your family. That is what happened to me, but I am happy as I received hand of God.

        Check my website out. I have also got a book coming out next year.

        Sara Khan

    • Lamisa

      January 12, 2020 at 2:04 AM

      Whats the proof do u have that it happens in almost every extended family?

  11. MR

    February 16, 2009 at 10:37 AM


    May Allah protect these innocent children. Ameen.

    This def. needs to be translated into all the languages of the Muslim world. It also needs to be printed out and handed out to community leaders and imams.

  12. pakMuslim

    February 16, 2009 at 10:49 AM

    One aspect that is not addressed in the article is the homosexual molestation that goes on in religous madrassas ‘back home’.

    My dad worked for a while as the chief administrator to ‘modernize’ one of Pakistan’s largest madrassah system. You won’t believe how many ‘huffadh’ he caught & expelled who had raped the boys they were teaching to memorize the Quran. Of course, the complaints were even more than the expulsions, and the actual incidents probably much higher than the number of complaints! You can only imagine the extent of the problem from that.

    The important lesson is that humans will get away with as much evil as they can if the rule of law is not established. That is why simply relying on individual piety (taqwa) is not enough. For most people, fear of severe punishment is what prevents them from comitting henious crimes.

    • Abu Ibrahim

      April 17, 2010 at 9:31 PM

      You are very correct in this respect. I studied in West Africa for a few years with several other American Muslim boys. There was a young man living in the same compound whom everyone respected as being a devout student of the religion.

      One day a non-Muslim who was visiting said he saw that man molesting one of the boys. Unfortunately, the accuser was not Muslim and had a bad reputation and the accused was Muslim (as was the boy) and had a good reputation.

      A year later, another boy told me that same young man had molested him. There was no way this could be a coincidence. Only Allah knows how many other boys that sicko had molested.

  13. Someone

    February 16, 2009 at 12:34 PM

    Assalamu Alykum

    Apologies, for going off track, just a request – can MM please publish an article about Valentine’s Day?

    JazakAllahu Khair,

  14. Dawud Israel

    February 16, 2009 at 1:12 PM

    This post was bonkers. I’ve known a few people with these difficulties and just really hurts. And this is a complex issue that starts with emphasizing self-restraint and discipline (do we ever?) and raising awareness in our local communities.

    May Allah ease their difficulties and punish these offenders, Ameen.

  15. Skeptical

    February 16, 2009 at 2:05 PM

    May Allah (SWT) bless you for writing on this “taboo” topic. Unfortunately, this happens often enough, yet on one likes to talk about it. People are more concern, these days, in mainting their family relations, than to actually take the time to listen to their children and have faith in them. It breaks my heart to see how a mother wouldn’t believe her child in such horrific events…

    I hope, InshAllah, these series of articles give people strength to “accept” the problem when it arrises (although I pray that it never does) and be more willing to talk to their children about it. Even in taking preventing measures.

  16. Unkown

    February 16, 2009 at 4:42 PM


    Jazakallahu khair

    This topic is surely one that has been greatly neglected and placed in darkest corners of our thoughts.

    As I was growing up two older males molested me and they were both relatives. Parents should always be aware that although cousins and uncles may be very loving of their relatives what they do in secret and private is not known until its exposed, for example; In my case my uncle and cousin (male in mid teens) were very loving and cared about me, so the first incident in Pakistan everyone was getting ready to go to sleep and my cousin said lets sleep together little did I know of the perverse acts he would do I was only 10. That night he fondled me, and I never forgot it! I never told my mother because I would not know what to say, how to say it, what would be the reply, the repercussions. I was never taught that my body has its sanctity and should remain sacred but I was surely taught other things like to stay away from strangers. Later on once I cam back from Pak. I was staying in relatives house and it was quite crowded and yet again everyone was getting ready to sleep. I slept with my uncle AND aunt (his wife!) I was on one side of the bed and she was on the other and in the darkness of night he fondled me, I immediately left the room. In both cases it was an example of parents showing overly trust of their brothers or nephews for their outwardly love which was acting as a facade of their evil desires. I never felt the same with these two people again I now I think to how many other relatives could they have done this to and perhaps even their own family members. I don’t wish to speak to these people anymore even though they are relatives I despise them, an inner hatred of their actions and their false affection of care and kinship is deplorable. I never really was “traumatized” by these incidents I simply shunned it from thought but surely they do arise once mention of these relative are made in the house. All of these were probably unexpected from my parents considering I am a male.

    May Allah give this Ummah the strength and resolve to fight our evil desires and help us stay on the right path.

  17. Taha A.

    February 16, 2009 at 5:42 PM

    Just so sad that a muslim would do anything like that . Just shows that these individuals have no fear of allah (swt). May allah protect all individuals from these shayatin.Ameen


  18. Algebra

    February 16, 2009 at 7:18 PM

    Many of these things can be avoided. In Islam a brother and sister are to be separated at a young age and even sisters cannot sleep under the same blanket or covering much less uncles(in the case of unknown above). children(brother and sister) are suppose to be separated at a young age. I think the age limit is 7 or 10. I am not sure.
    BUT islam does teach us preventitive measures to avoid these kinds of mishaps. I remember my father would make us covering in front of our uncles(Mahrems) I just never understood why but he used to tell us to cover with a chadar even in america even in front of our Mahrem uncles.
    I thought he was really strict when we were young but i guess he was being protective.
    we were not allowed to stay at relatives house without our mother or father and definately not in the same room as other relatives.

    • Anon

      January 26, 2010 at 1:12 PM

      Its 10. Not only brother and sister, but brother and brother as well. And needless to say this rule may be applied to cousins and relatives as well.

      • Y

        January 26, 2010 at 3:15 PM

        Brother and brother, sister and sister aswell?

  19. Umm Reem

    February 16, 2009 at 7:19 PM

    JazanaAllahu khair…

    I was asked to elaborate more on the mentality of molesters but I couldn’t. If I didn’t understand something myself, how can I write about it. I, honestly, cannot comprehend why someone would do something like this, what goes through their minds, what happens to them, how shaytaan overpowers them, iyyadhobillah. May Allah protect us all and our children.

    As I will be discussing in the solutions, inshaAllah, education is the key. It is our, parents, responsibility as educators to teach our children about their body parts, including private parts, implicitly and explicitly. As you all might have noticed, from the comments as well, that not knowing much about body and what needs to be protected and how always remained a confusion in little minds.

    I cannot emphasize enough the need and the necessity of educating children about their body. And believe me it does NOT take away from their innocence. I also highly encourage, if not force, parents to have a “sex-ed” talk with their children somewhere between the ages of 7-10. InshaAllah I have mentioned some of these points in solutions and I will be posting an article, in near future, on sex-education of children by parents, inshaAllah.

    Unknown: may Allah help you and protect you. Applying Islamic principles in our daily lives is always a source of our protections and our loved ones. We are supposed to separate beds once the child reaches the age of 10, according to the hadeeth of Prophet sallallahu alihi wasalam. I wish people would practice this principle more often.

    Organica: you can sit now :D hope u r feeling better

  20. MuslimahCA

    February 16, 2009 at 8:15 PM

    SubhanAllah! May Allah reward you for writting about this topic and bringing it to the attention of those havent realized this issue..

    I wish I was overexagerating when i say MANY sisters that I know have been through some sort of sexual harrasment by someone in their extended family let alone a stranger. In one cause my ethnic community started a sunday school and when the years passed they started letting just about ANYONE teach us sisters. One sister after another complained that the teacher was sexually harrassing them and for one sister till this day she has menatally blackout and doesnt remember the incident that had happened in the brothers restroom where he had taken. The sisters ranged from 5-9 years old.

    This incident happened in America and till this some of the parents have an idea who the man was and have NEVER reported him to leave, the sisters and i talk about this incident and wonder what kind of families let this happen.

    Its one thing to have parents totally dismiss it and think your telling stories but its a whole different issues when they choose to not do anything about it, like one sister I know was forced to have the man live next door and has asked to forgive him because he is her cousin.

    May Allah protect our sisters in Islam from these predators Muslim or not.

  21. Not Saying

    February 16, 2009 at 8:20 PM

    Hats off to you sis for addressing this topic. Even though I haven’t been a victim of molestation I know of a lot of people who are and a few times I’ve seen it happen in front of my eyes. It’s unbelievable. It can be anyone from Quran teachers to close relatives even mahrams of the child! SubhanAllah the minds of the people out there are corrupt and it’s sickening to think about the acts the engage themselves in. Earlier I believed that such things were abundant in places like Indian & Pakistan (3rd world countries) but that doesn’t seem to be the case. They’re lurking everywhere, ready to pounce on any innocent child that they can get their hands on. I’m scared to let my children be alone in the company of anyone other than their parents. My mother was molested as a child and she still recalls the incidents with a lot of remorse to this day when she’s in her old age. It has left an impact on her life and she has carried it with her life long. She was VERY protective of me and my siblings and always told us to be on gaurd and she always made us feel comfortable in sharing everything with her. So if we ever would have experienced something like this we would have never hesitated to go tell her about it. I think having this kind of relationship with our kids is vital. May Allah protect us ALL from such evil, AMEEN.

  22. Not Saying

    February 16, 2009 at 9:42 PM

    Also wanted to add, one of our family members has been under a lot of suspicion lately and this person is very close to me. I was devastated when I found out at first but when it came to this person coming in contact with my children I was always vigilant and never let them be alone with him. It’s very saddening for me and it took me a long time to get over certain things that I came to know. It still haunts me and I am always making dua that this person repents and stops doing such acts. If I wasn’t aware of it, there would be NO WAY I could suspect anything of such degree from him. So to all the parents out there PLEASE be VERY careful and expect it from the unexpected.

  23. Abu Uthman

    February 16, 2009 at 10:14 PM

    This is an article addresses child molestation with its primary focus,
    its occurrance amongst Muslims and Islamists.

    I agree that Muslims can steal, do zina, molestation, etc..
    Helpline etc; excellant.

    What I would like these reformists amongst the Muslims to “ALSO” address,
    even with help if they have to, is this:

    WHAT IS THE ISLAMIC RULING / punishment on child molestation?
    AND WHAT should the Muslims do to bring about this law in the lands that they live?

    Abu Uthman

    Edited. If you have comments/suggestions, please maintain a respectful tone, and pls stop with the sarcasm and insults. I believe you have meaningful points to make, and it will only add value to them if you maintain a positive decorum. Otherwise pls don’t mind if they are edited or deleted in the future. waslaam- Amad

    • burqa barbie

      May 15, 2012 at 12:32 PM

      The west is secular. It makes Muslims come across as fundamentalist to not accept secularism. The only others who push religious law and seperate laws under united countries are extremist Christians like the John Birch Society. Perhaps you should contemplate on the value of secularism before riding your big stallion in and pushing religious law on everyone. Perhaps it is for a good reason and you should respect that. Were not stoning people, though in some states they do have the death sentence for death/assault of children.

  24. Mohammed Tarfun

    February 16, 2009 at 10:18 PM

    To elaborate on Br. pakMuslim’s comment, Madrasahs have been a very common ground where children have been molested.

    Even in America, you’d be surprised what goes on inside some of those places where the deen of Allah is being sought and his book memorized.

    As a past madrasah student, I remember that the teachers were VERY strict with how the students would interact. There were no doors on any rooms, no two students were allowed to be alone without a third party, there was a night guard who’d constantly come and check up on the kids, etc.

    Forgive me if I go off on a tangent.

    I do remember though that a student had transferred in from another madrasah who didn’t seem like anything special at first, but after he left our madrasa after a few months, we found out that the reason he transferred to our madrasah was because he was kicked out of the other place for molesting another student (this was a proven fact from different sources).

    If you’re a parent and have a child in a madrasah, make sure you establish a good relationship with his teachers and friends, and if possible, try to have him come home every night and sleep (some madrasahs have boarding options, but in my humble opinion, I wouldn’t recommend it for students).

    Though my post may be edited/deleted for this statement, but I wanted to make a comment on what happened with ********* last year. (For those who don’t know, ********* was a teacher in Darul Uloom al-Madania in Buffalo, NY who was found to have married one of his students without her parents consent.) In madrasah, the relationship between students and teachers is very strong. If the teacher says to do something, usually students won’t disobey their teacher under normal circumstances. ****** told his student to marry him because “it would be beneficial for her deen.” Make sure your child doesn’t fall into this same trap. Speak to your child and have them tell you everything their teacher spoke to them about during the day. And also tell your child to interact with all the teachers and not just one, for that could create issues in the long run, if you know what I mean.

    EDITED: Name deleted for obvious reasons.

  25. Amad

    February 16, 2009 at 10:25 PM

    I believe that we should have a post in the future regarding male-molestation, because I also have met men who are now completely messed up mentally and psychologically, because they were abused as children. One of these men went to a Catholic boys school in Pakistan, and was molested by one or more nuns, and by virtue of that, he is still so depressed that his marital life, his role as a father, is all messed up.

  26. Abu Uthman

    February 16, 2009 at 11:07 PM

    Another angle is to also a look at boys being molested by aunts and their sisters – maybe?


  27. Umm Reem

    February 16, 2009 at 11:43 PM

    A post on boy molestation is very much needed, however, i cannot do this but inshaAllah I hope someone will. I didn’t come across any male victims except that one family Amad mentioned where the husband was molested in his Catholic Boarding school in Karachi. He was a messed up husband and his wife finally divorced him, he was a case of extreme personality disorder and totally abandoned religion from his life.

    Although, as i was researching for this article i read a lot about male victims and it seems like that precocious sexuality (which i discussed in part II b) is a very common side effect amongst male victims. And at one point i was thinking that perhaps it could be ONE of the reasons of pornography addiction among Muslim men, wAllahu ‘alam.

  28. Saima M

    February 17, 2009 at 1:16 AM

    Jazaakillaah khayr Umm Reem for writing about this much needed issue.

    I agree about a post on boy molestation. I’ve heard similar stories and I feel its equally important.

    May Allaah protect the honour of Muslims.

    • Asma

      October 13, 2016 at 8:41 PM

      I was a victim. He was my Qari who was teaching me how to read the Quran. He would take my hand in his and make me touch his privates and vice versa. I locked him in the bathroom one day as a sort of punishment. Me and my sister were home alone during lessons. I finally told my parents and they changed our Qari. For the longest time ever I’ve tried to block this out and to quite an extent I did. This changed me as a person. I became aware of sex much before my time. I’ve made bad choices in life, I’ve even questioned my faith at times. May Allah protect all of our children from these wolves in sheeps clothing. This is the first time I’ve spoken about it. I must’ve been 7 or 8 at the time

  29. Brother

    February 17, 2009 at 1:44 AM

    I’ve read so far many incidents happening within the Pakistani/Indian families. Do we have incidents in other Muslim countries as well?

  30. Basil Mohamed Gohar

    February 17, 2009 at 2:06 AM

    Jazaakee Allaahu khayran, Umm Reem, for taking the time out to prepare this sorely needed piece. It has already started a dialog between me & my wife on this issue, and alhamdulillaah, we are trying to plan our family life to protect ourselves (yes!) and our family members from either being victims or transgressors. Remember the hadeeth of the Messenger of Allaah, salallaahu ʿalayhi wa sallam:

    Volume 3, Book 43, Number 624:

    Narrated Anas:

    Allah’s Apostle said, “Help your brother, whether he is an oppressor or he is an oppressed one. People asked, “O Allah’s Apostle! It is all right to help him if he is oppressed, but how should we help him if he is an oppressor?” The Prophet said, “By preventing him from oppressing others.”
    –Saheeh Bukhaaree

  31. Muslimah

    February 17, 2009 at 2:28 AM

    ^ JazakhAllahu kheir for that reminder! Sometimes its could be that the person just needs to get married ASAP or they might have some sort of illness, all and all we need to make dua’s for them.

    @brohter- their are a lot of gruesome stories from other countries too and the parents mostly choose to ignore the situation all together if they dont blame the child that is.

    I think one thing the communities need to work on is speaking the community in general and telling them that these incidents should not be ignored and that their childs safety and emotions are greater then this “dignity” that they are trying to protect.

    One incident that happened in my community had all the parents come together and decide that keeping what had happened to their daughters should be kept a secret and that the authorities should not be made aware of this predator that lurks in the masjid and teaches the kids as a substitute when the quran teacher is not there.

    grrr this really upsets and will make me that much more protective over my daughter and just as much my sons.

    p.s I always wondered why mom never let us sleep over friends or family members homes, EVEN my brother!

    p.s.s I have 5 REALLY close friends, 4 out of 5 including myself have had either one or 2 incidents.

    Allah Mustan

  32. Megan

    February 17, 2009 at 4:18 AM


    As’salamu Alaikum. I want to applaud MuslimMatters for writing on this subject. This is indeed a grave reality of humanity regardless of race, religion, or geographic location. Indeed many people think that this is rare in the Muslim community (like other taboo topics) but when you being to ask or be one of those people others trust and come to for help, you begin to realize that this has occurred at an alarming rate.

    I noticed there was a request for someone to do an article about men as well being molested. I think to save time and energy, the rest of the articles should be addressed for both audiences, not just females, since it happens to both boys and girls.

    And out of curiosity, is there someone who can find out if this subject was addressed from our scholars in the days past? It would be an interesting subject to look into.

  33. Umm Reem

    February 17, 2009 at 8:22 AM

    Brother: yes this happens in other Muslim countries too. In fact, Egypt aired a show on TV making awareness among people about this…

    Megan: I have already finished the series so I cannot change it. Besides, as I said since I myself didn’t deal with any male victims I cannot speak for them.
    Scholars have addressed this issue and I have compiled a number of fatawas in the last section “solutions”. So inshaAllah just wait until the conclusion of the series and you will see it there…

    Not saying: why don’t you advise that person, perhaps it will be beneficial for him.

    Also, it is good that parents protect their children by not letting them have sleepovers, however, in several cases sleeping over had nothing to do with the molestation. Little Naureen was not allowed to have sleepover either….as i said it only takes being alone with the victim for few minutes…

    What parents need to realize, and again I cannot emphasize enough, is to educate their child. The child MUST know about his/her body parts, what needs to be protected from others, MUST have the confidence that he/she can approach his/her parents if anything goes wrong, and this confidence comes from an open communication.

  34. Brother

    February 17, 2009 at 8:43 AM

    Jazak Allahu khair for the reply. I had a feeling this happens everywhere, but this is the first time I’m hearing so many situations within Muslim communities. SubhanAllah. I’ve been to Pakistan recently and my cousins mentioned how this stuff happens in madrassahs, but I couldnt sit and imagine this happens to that degree within families. One incident relates how there was an islamic gathering in a nearby madrassah and 4-6 girls were drugged and kidnapped. Madrassahs stories are the ones you hear more commonly.

  35. UmA

    February 17, 2009 at 10:41 AM

    Can somebody please post the hadeeth about separating the beds

  36. Umm Reem

    February 17, 2009 at 10:58 AM

    From Amr b. Shu’aib, from his father, from his grandfather, who said : Rasulullah s.a.w said :”Prescribe prayers to your children when they are seven years of age, and punish them (if they do not say them) when they are ten years old of age, and separate their beds (at that age)”. ( Abu Dawud )

  37. Anisa

    February 17, 2009 at 12:34 PM


    Thank you for starting this series. May Allah reward you, ameen

    There is no better cure for such a problem than knowledge.

  38. Aba Abdullah (need advice)

    February 17, 2009 at 12:56 PM

    Assalam alaikum wa rahmatullah,

    Sister Umm Reem, may Allah reward you for your courage!

    I need some advice on this issue…

    Donnow where to start…

    …I have 3 year old son…I caught my brother in law’s son (13-14) making my toddler son sit on his lap and he was lying down…as well I caught one more time, in my bedroom, fondling him…To be honest, I was about to slaughter this animal child….however, I could not catch him do it, I could see though…he was pretending it innocent…All I could was shook him away from my son…Struggling how to share this with my wife…

    From that molesting child I heard once that his father holds his ass and his private parts, auzibillah…I would not have believed had I not seen his father holding his 20 year old brother’s private part trying to measure it, auzibillahi minashshaytanirrojiym….to be honest…i am left speechless…I was attacked myself as a teenager my maternal uncle at night, asking me to perform an act of sodomy on him…Alhamdulillah, I had the strength to escape his hug…could not tell my parents, what an embarassment, told my brother who was in military, he laughed confirming that he was also attacked by the same person…

    I had this traumatic experience…never want my son to live through this…please share your thoughts, how could I tell this to my wife, and I could prevent him from this…

    Jazakumullah khairan.

    • Amad

      February 17, 2009 at 1:32 PM

      Aba Abdullah, if you don’t me suggesting something for you. Have your wife read these articles. In case she doesn’t read English or is not fluent in it, read and translate the main points from it. Then tell her what you saw and how things like these will affect your son in the future, if you both don’t do something about it. Obviously, you cannot let this 13-yr old boy be alone with your son anymore… You should also print these articles and give it to the boy’s father, so he understands how he is impacting the pscyhology of his children, and how he haraam this action is. This is not the time to be sensitive about family relations, this is the time for action and making sure your family is safe from predators. Wallahualam.

    • Anon

      November 3, 2009 at 3:16 PM

      Just reading all this makes me feel sick. I too was molested by my Quran tutor (I’m a guy), I obviously don’t intend to divulge the details, as they are quite explicit, and disturbing.

      Although, I feel I’ve moved on, I know that incident has affected me in some way. One, being that I cannot stand anyone touching me (be it my parents, sisters etc.), another might be me being a social recluse. I can’t really understand why, but I feel that incident also distanced me from my dad.

      “I had this traumatic experience…never want my son to live through this…please share your thoughts, how could I tell this to my wife, and I could prevent him from this…”

      Man, you’ve gotta separate your son from that kid, and cut off all ties with that family! I have no idea where you’re from, but the problem with some people from the Asian sub-continent is that they value the feelings of their relatives to an unhealthy extent. I know someone who was molested by a relative, and has to keep it shushed up, just because the offender is part of the family, and exposing his perverted and sick assault would hurt the “feelings of his relatives” who happen to be close relatives of the victims mother! This in my opinion is transparently wrong! Leaving a person like this unchecked, could endanger others in the family.

      • Anon

        November 4, 2009 at 8:44 AM

        *I meant, Indian sub-continent not Asian. Silly me.

  39. true

    February 17, 2009 at 2:43 PM

    I know of a family were the elder brother who was 16yrs tried to molest her 10 yr old sister.But she refused his advances and ran away.The parents just blamed the girl to have more haya,and keep the family honour.This was a highly reserved very well to do family where the kids were not frank with the parents.

  40. Algebra

    February 17, 2009 at 7:57 PM

    “I believe that we should have a post in the future regarding male-molestation, because I also have met men who are now completely messed up mentally and psychologically, because they were abused as children. One of these men went to a Catholic boys school in Pakistan, and was molested by one or more nuns, and by virtue of that, he is still so depressed that his marital life, his role as a father, is all messed up”

    Yes I agree with you. My ex told me that in his college in Hasan Abdal, some times men used to molest other boys and i just couldn’t believe it. but it is true. Actually i have heard about more men being molested than girls. I guess parents think that boys can protect themselves(MAYBE).
    and even in Catholic Schools as well. I have heard about that as well. My ex told me that too.
    anyway its just horrific.
    Many of the boys and all boys school are also physically abused and that needs to be addressed as well because than these abused boys tend to abuse as fathers………..

  41. Muslima

    February 17, 2009 at 7:57 PM

    Scholars have said, when they explain the verse of the the Quran that lists a woman’s mahrem, that this is because a woman is most closely related to these blood relatives. These close blood relatives, by nature, do not have any attraction/inclination towards their daughters, grand-daughters, sisters and neices. Which is why the hijab is not commanded, infront of them, and they are allowed to travel with them and be alone with them, etc These close blood relatives are there to protect their women from predators outside.

    So, how is it that these very family members/relatives could feel ‘that’ way for their female ward? Its baffling!

  42. Algebra

    February 17, 2009 at 8:01 PM

    @Aba Abdullah (need advice

  43. Umm Reem

    February 17, 2009 at 11:52 PM

    Abu Abdullah:
    please protect your child. Keep him away from that boy and the family if needed. Talk to you wife…what are you waiting for? sorry for being so upfront, but realize that you are the one who is entrusted with your child’s protection, he cannot do it himself so don’t leave him alone…this is not the time to worry about ur relationship with your family… I am sure if you talk to your wife and explain to her seriously, she would understand.
    Realize that most of the time mothers/wives are afraid to take an action because they are scared and they don’t have male support by them, if your wife knows that you will take a stand, she will happily stand by your side, inshaAllah. May Allah azzawajal help you and your son.

    I will post links to some of the fataws about similar situation and how the shayook emphasized the necessity of keeping the child away from the molester even if it is a blood-relative.

  44. abu abdAllah Tariq Ahmed

    February 18, 2009 at 1:29 AM

    bismillah was salamu alaykum. akhee, Aba Abdullah, may Allah give you strength to do what is right. alhamdolillah. Allah brought you here to find these articles in a time when you are in need of naseeha and support.

    this is a test that would cause anyone pain or anguish. but you can succeed, inshaAllah. remember what saved you when you were a child — you did not let fear paralyze you then. you fought back. fight back now.

    there is no doubt that what is right is to protect your child from being molested. you know that, alhamdolillah, so what is at issue for you is how.

    let’s start with how to deal with who.

    (1) your wife. she should be the easiest person to help you protect your son. and i think i understand the source of hesitation — have you ever told her about the attempted molestation of you by your relative? you do not need to discuss the answer here — that is a private question and this is a public forum, but i mention it so that other people on this forum will show more restraint, inshaAllah.

    i do not know what is in your heart, and neither does your wife. but Allah Knows. and He has given you a chance to protect your son in a way that no person protected you. so be strong, akhee. be strong, and let your wife be a strength for you, inshaAllah.

    if it helps, take this tack when you discuss your own past with her — emphasize that Allah gave you the strength to get away from that molester, but that no one else came to your help. and emphasize that you and she can do for your son what no one did for you. and then let her be strong with you.

    (2) your son — use the contact information that will help you get the advice you need to speak to your son with clarity and with protection of his innocence, inshaAllah, to explain to him what is his awrah, and how and why to protect it. and that there are other ways that he should not let people approach him, and how he can get your attention and your wife’s when he needs it. something as simple as a loud and shrill whistle might help save your child — though you may want to be sure he won’t use the whistle except in an emergency. i once gave such a whistle to an adult non-relative. years later she told me that it helped her call for aid when she was in a strange city and someone had attempted to attack her. subhanAllah.

    (3) whether you need outside help or not — i think it is good to contact Umm Reem and the other resources mentioned in these articles. do not be afraid to ask for help. but do be aware that you have a duty to protect your child. if you live in the US, and you do not protect your child, especially when you are aware of a threat, you may risk many of your rights as a parent. and may Allah protect you from it.

    this is a terrible test. but you can succeed, inshaAllah. remember what saved you when you were a child — you did not let fear paralyze you.

    (4) everyone else. everyone else is either (a) a direct threat to the safety of your child, and thus someone you need to keep away from your child by every ethical and legal restraint; (b) a source of help for you and your wife — and you should use them to the extent using them helps you — help might be in creating the buffer between your family and the source of threats; or (c) people who have no help to offer and no threat to be guarded against. do not let group (c) have your attention now.

    you must focus on protecting your family.

    and you are the best person for this job. i say this with conviction: Allah will never test any person with a trial except that that person has the capacity to succeed in it. they are ayaat you have heard before, but go read them again — right at the end of surah Baqarah. you were meant to succeed in this test, akhee. so go to it.

  45. S.M.

    February 18, 2009 at 3:40 AM

    Assalamu-alaikum…… wanted to share some incidents that prove that no place is safe from these predators… My husband says that when they were kids, he and his gang of friends , ages 4-10 used to go to a public pool to swim, and this middle-aged guy used to try and ‘help’ the boys to swim, but actually just wanted to fondle them Auudhubillaah, and they were so young that even though they sensed that here was something ‘wrong’, thay didnt know what to do, until one boy told his brother, and then they all shared their experiences, and they just stopped going there

    Another young boy, and his hostel-mates, all 8-10 years old were stripped naked by their female ‘warden’ at the slightest pretext of mischief from even one of the boys, and she would make them stand in a line and keep staring at their bodies, and any boy who dared hide his privates out of shame, was punished by being stripped even longer than the others. None of these kids ever had the guts to inform their parents.

    My mother told me how such things even happened at Makkah, Madinah, Mina,,, she experienced it, and saw it happen to others… and she was powerless to do anything about it…

    Another episode that traumatizes me is that while i was in KSA on vacation, my 18 month old daughter was running around in this shoe-store, and this sales-man, being pseudo-affectionate, picked her up, one hand between her legs, the other over her chest to apparently seat her on a stool, and i wasnt able to do anything. it just sickens me to my stomach that it happened, that i couldn’t do anything, and that these leches won’t even spare a toddler…. i felt just as mute, and sick and clueless as the times it happened with me, as a kid growing up in KSA, as a teenager in India, but later, i started carrying around an umbrella, or a stick or something to hit anybody who tried anything in a public place like a bus-stop, or actually scream back at the perpetrator in public, and once I actually complained to a police officer, and that too, only because it was my work-place and the officer was a muslim ; in the US, i doubt i could do anything since u keep hearing stories of how dangerous it is to resist any attacker….never know who might pull out a gun/brandish a knife……

  46. Sadaf

    February 18, 2009 at 6:42 AM

    I think Shaikh Bin Baz’s fatwa committee has some good analyses of the causes behind molesters’ behavior, and some proposed solutions. Please click here to go to a question on

  47. Sam

    February 18, 2009 at 8:58 AM

    Salaam aleikoum,
    Insha’Allah the molestors will get their punishment soon.

  48. bint

    February 18, 2009 at 11:36 AM


  49. anonymous

    February 18, 2009 at 12:35 PM

    JazakAllah khayr for addressing this situation, Umm Reem! I was very happy and depressed at the same time to read this post.

    My little sister was molested at a very young age and didn’t tell me until she was much older. I don’t think she held back because she didn’t think she would be believed; our family is very close alhamdulillah. She was just too young to understand what was going on. And even then she told the molestor “No!” several times, but he lied to her and said disgusting things like, “Allah has allowed me to do so” (our family is fairly religious and that sicko knew it).

    He was also a relative.

    Now I have children of my own, alhamdulillah. Because of my sister’s experience, I already tell my toddler that no one can touch his private parts. I hope you cover how and when to start talking to our children.

    jazakAllah khayR!

  50. S. Strauch

    February 19, 2009 at 9:28 AM

    If this exists in the Muslim world, it is certainly a problem; but I am sure it does not exist in the epidemic proportions that it does in the Christian world, where even many priests practice it.

  51. anonymous

    February 19, 2009 at 12:03 PM

    If this exists in the Muslim world, it is certainly a problem; but I am sure it does not exist in the epidemic proportions that it does in the Christian world, where even many priests practice it.

    I wouldn’t be so sure. I think it is not addressed in the Muslim world. I know a brother in tableegh who is a child molestor. And I’ve heard of imams/hifdh teachers raping/molesting their students.
    May Allah protect our kids.

  52. Amad

    February 19, 2009 at 3:19 PM

    Mohammed Tarfun, the story you mentioned isn’t a secret:

    It’s a horrible story… there are so many lessons in this, but I wouldn’t know even where to start.

  53. Amad

    February 19, 2009 at 3:24 PM

    anonymous: wallahualam… but I don’t think the Imam molestation thing is at epidemic levels as it is in the Catholic priests. There is a reason for this. The priests don’t have marital options, Imams do. So, when the natural inclinations are suppressed, then one can expect a greater reaction. I have known many Imams and Shayookh… they may have gone into Islamically-legal options beyond one wife, but relatively speaking, it isn’t that bad in the illegitimate areas… wallahualam.

  54. AbuZakariyya

    February 19, 2009 at 7:35 PM

    It must also be noted that the molester, very astutely, observes the child-parent relationship. In many cases, the victims are children who don’t have a close and frank relationship with their parents

    Sh Jamal (hafiduhullah), in one of his recent lectures on the Purification of the Soul was talking about how the mind can be used for evil or how it can be used for the benefit in this life and the hereafter. subhanAllah, it amazes me how when a person intends to commit evil, he plans and plots so much. The mind is absorbed by his evil plans and is blind to any sense of morality. I’d say this is the case with any evil/sin that is committed, but in cases of sexual nature, it becomes even more heightened.

    May Allah protect our children and our families, ameen

  55. Umm_baps

    February 20, 2009 at 1:18 AM

    As-Salaam Alaikum,

    I recived this link quite late,

    Subhan’Allah, your msgs emphasizes the importance of educating own children about Haya and the importance of making them aware of their Awrah, Alhumdulillah. But just one more point:

    It is also necc. for parents to make themselves accessible to their kids, build a bond between them so if such an instance should arise, a boy does not shy away from telling his father and a girl does not feel ashamed to speak to her mother. Oftimes children feel unsure of their parents reactions or feel too ashamed to talk openly to them, we must make our children feel their thoughts and secrets are safe with us.

    As any adult, a child’s trust is broken when his feels are openly discussed or joked about infront of others, parents be aware of your children’s rights upon you; they are no less than the rights other Muslim adults have upon you.

  56. Skeptical

    February 20, 2009 at 9:36 AM

    It is also a good idea to speak with your spouse about the possibility/reality of these dangers and IF a situation were to arise, may Allah (SWT) forbid and have mercy upon us all, how would they communicate with each other. Because it is such a horrific act, both the parents need to be aware of it and support their child.

    I know some women are afraid of going to their husbands in these situations fearing that the husband would somehow blame them, not the predator. It is easier to blame the wife or the child rather than face a possible family member. Regardless, the husband and wife should be on the same page in this situation.

  57. UmA

    February 20, 2009 at 9:57 AM

    I don’t know if this has been mentioned in the numerous comments, but it’s also important to make sure adults don’t incriminate themselves.

    For example I know that teachers and scout leaders should never put themselves in a situation where they are alone with a child, like teachers would be discouraged from entering the student washrooms.

    Parents may have to think about how to arrange sleepovers or visits to friends/family so that everyone, adults included are comfortable and safe e.g. if a daughter’s friend comes over to visit but only the husband is home, that might not be suitable anymore. this would protect all parties.

    Umm Reem any suggestions on how to bring up this touchy topic of safe visits?

  58. Umm Omar

    February 20, 2009 at 12:46 PM

    As Salamu alaykum wa rahamthullah,

    I got this thread very lately but still astonished to find so many things going on in islamic coutires and islamic homes…esp madarasa ones…and buffalo story is heard to believe…very hard to believe t statements from t so called imam. A’oodhubillah.

    I wait eagerly for the thrid part to seek solutions as to how to protect more and let t children believe it is for their safety and not rigidity jus for them…and i don want to take any risks for my children. Al though my son is very small, <1 year, i want to be alert and make him alert before anything comes in his way. Hasbunallah Wani’amal wakeel.

  59. loga

    February 24, 2009 at 2:18 AM

    for my brothers and those who are fathers:

  60. sad sister

    March 4, 2009 at 5:46 AM

    my brother has been molested in a rehabilatation center for drugs and when he told our parents they refused to believe whatever he said they said hes making up stories but i know hes not hes 22 today and still cant get over it.i read about the symptoms on a website they all match to his behaviour at the moment he is suffering through bipolar,suicidal behaviour,bad grades in school,he still takes drugs and hurts himself aswell..i dont know what to do as a younger sister.please tell me some way through which i could prove to our parents tht he has been taken advantage of,he tells me all the time tht he only wishes they would believe him sumday.and today im posting this because he tried to commit suicide again this morning.i cant do much.please help me.

  61. Tariq Mahmood

    March 17, 2009 at 2:23 AM

    I have not ever been a victim of molestation, and I have never really known anyone who was definitively molested, however I believe that death is too good for the animals that do this.

    They should have their hands and feet cut off from alternative sides, they should then be crucified over three days, and if they live then they should be experimented on for the good of man kind.

    Harsh as it may be, the act on a child is the most disgusting thing one can do.

    I call on all of those who are truly outraged to join with me, we can not eradicate this problem today, however in due time we can. I am sound like a delusional individual but listen to me.

    In the next 10 years or so technology will advance so much in the West that it may be possible to actually track every human being. Already RFID devices exist which emit radio frequency’s that can be scanned from a hundreds of feet, in the future they may some form of radio frequency trackers that send of signals that are picked up by other trackers and towers and beamed to satellites. Basically everyone can be tracked (already this is largely true, although I believe current Celluar Technology emits minutely harmful radiation, where as analog radio waves do not, but I may be wrong).

    Anyways we can move to an Orwellian World where everyone is being watched, is this necessarily a bad thing? Is any price too much to pay to prevent the rape of a 6 year old girl?

    How can we make this happen? By building ourselves as a community and seeking to control the flow of resources. If you control resources you can decide who gets them and you can share only with those who share your world view.

    Of course this is not something that can happen overnight, but if you were all serious about preventing such things you would ban together and act in this manner. Believe it or not but those who reside in the West can exert a great amount of influence in the Third World. An unskilled labor in America earns enough to direct the labor of over a dozen men in Yemen, Pakistan, or Egypt. If we acted in an intelligent manner we could but these individuals to work using modern capital to magnify their production and continually use the surplus (profit) to put more people to work.

    This may seem off topic, but that is how things can be changed, yet who will rise to change things?

  62. F.K

    April 22, 2009 at 10:12 PM

    Assalamualaikum, I am 16 years old and I live in America since i was 4. When we first move to America my father bought a small convenient store and converted it into a majid. He used to be the Imam there for a while, then any people started to move to our neighborhood from many different places. Many were without jobs or homes, my father always welcomed them to stay at the masjid.
    Then a man coming from Pakistan or India im not sure asked for a job and a place to live. My father gave him a job as being the Quran teacher on our small masjid. Soon he was teaching many students in the madrash, but he always had a gift for me. I was 8 at the time. He told me i knew the best Quran. One day my father told me he was going to come late and my little brother and I were going to have to stay in the masjid with him until Ishaa. So happily i did, the the uncle told my brother and i to go hide (we’d play hide and seek). So i hid in the closet and my brother ran to hide somewhere else. When he found me, he grabbed me and cover my mouth and told me everything was alright. Then he did what he wanted and then gave me another gift. Everyday i would fake sick or make up some excuse not to go to madrasah, i never had the guts to tell my parents. For 2 years this happened to me and i never told a soul. He later moved back to his own country. I must have blocked it out of my memory or something but i never thought of it. But then when i was 12 years old i started to have nightmares and i became afraid of every man i’d meet. So one day i told my cousin and she begged me to tell my parents or she would. so at 3 in the moring i snuck i my parents room. I woke up my mother and told her then she just gave me a look and then asked if my father had heard. they both just stared at me and then my father said we’d talk about it the next day. That “next day” never came.
    I thought my parents never cared that much about me, but then i just told myself they were asleep that night i went to them , and they didnt remember what i told them .
    But now at 16 and i live in a boarding school a thousand miles away from home. I get nightmares, i wake up screaming and i disturb my roommates.I’m lost in the past always trying to forget.
    I truthfully dont know what to do. Is there any advice anyone can give me?

    • Sara Khan

      December 17, 2010 at 3:02 AM

      My advice is. It wasn’t your fault. Your parents understood what you told them, but choose to ignore you. That is what Asian familys do. Can you talk to someone else. Or try to get some help. You need to do it for yourself.

      Check my website out. I am a survivor of incest child abuse. I am helping other victims know.

      Sara Khan

  63. sealed lips

    April 23, 2009 at 7:18 AM

    F.K I’m truly sorry for what happened to you and i hope that you get over your nightmares, consult someone for Dua’

    But on the other hand I dont think a story about masjid and madrasah be brought up like this, it harms the reputation of Islam. esp today when Islamic institutions are under attack. One can also substitute names and places in such incidents easily.

    Remember that out main aim is to protect Islam and our teachers from being pointed at. What this man did was wrong but this incident will lead many to generalize.

    I hope you understand what i mean to say.


    • F.K

      October 17, 2009 at 6:01 PM

      Salamu alaikum sealed lips,

      I understand your point of veiw. But the reason for me telling my story was not only to inform people of my past yet it was to warn others. Yes, protecting our imams and teachers of their faults is incumbent upon us. But you have to realize that humans will always be humans and i my opinion every parent should be informed that just because someone is an imam does not mean that they are sinless. My whole point, wich i guess i should have made more clear was that; We should not hire just anyone. Rather we should make the effort to learn more about them and be a little more careful for the saftey of our children and ourselves.

      Jazakallah Khair

      • Unknown

        June 1, 2010 at 1:38 PM

        Are you NUTS!! Why should it be concealed! It is what it is! It was a quran teacher it was a mosque it was what it was!!!

        This is why victims of sexual abuse are afraid to tell what happened becuase they well again be victimized by comments and disbleief as yours!!!

        How dare you say such a thing’! He/She is telling the truth This child was molested by a Mullah! PERIOD!.

        • Sara Khan

          December 17, 2010 at 3:05 AM

          I strongly agree with you. Can not believe what the other poster said. Ignorance, thats what it is. Dont mention it and it will go away. No it will not go away. Sorry really angry!!

      • Max Weber

        October 8, 2015 at 12:19 PM

        The FBI has a good PDF on how to identify a pedophile… I talked to a friend who’s grandfather had molested the children, then the children would bring the grandchildren to visit and he molested them. “Sealed lips” this is what happens when people try to protect and evil man. Generations of torment and suffering. More likely, you, being a father should march into the place where this lower than a rat is and destroy him. Consider the case in Texas where the man walked into the house to find his daughter being ___ and beat the evil person to death. At least in Texas there was justice. The father was not punished.

  64. boi

    April 23, 2009 at 7:31 AM

    umm reem i share this story with great caution, but as you wanted a boy’s tale i thought i will be brave.

    when i was 9 i was learning how to drive, my mothers chauffer would teach me. we usually drove outside the city in the suburban deserted area in the afternoon. he would caress my thighs when showing me how to let go of the clutch and brake etc. he later fondled me and soon one day he asked me to fondle him. i was so confused. it became a routine and later he even forced me to come to the servant quarter for full fledged sex. i wish i had spoken up but i was so embarresed to, lest ppl say i was the one who started it.

    but when he started this i knew lil of sexual matters and i thought this was ok, as he was a man who prayed 5 times and all, so one day i fondled a cousin of mine who was 18 and he freaked out and told me this was a sin. thats when i realizes the gravity of problem and i hated this man but i could not stop him. thankfully he left the job soon afterwards.

    • Max Weber

      October 8, 2015 at 12:21 PM

      May Allah/God bless you.

  65. tahir

    April 23, 2009 at 7:47 AM

    -Edited. Pls do not add comments that are unrelated. You can use the open threads.

  66. UmmeAmmaarah

    April 23, 2009 at 3:52 PM

    my dear little brother….Assalamu-alaikum.

    no one can truly fathom what someone else goes through…but it’s obvious that you are deeply disturbed. This is my contribution, and a du’a that Allah Ta’Ala make it easy for you, grant u peace and protect us all from this fahsh.
    -make sure you read the sunnah tasbeehaat before you go to sleep, including the istighfaar a 100 times
    -sleep on your right side…atleast to begin with
    -when u wake up from a bad dream, get up, spit on your left three times and read ‘auoozubillaahi minash-shaytaan-nirrajeem’, and be content that this is from Shaytaan, and InshaAllah nothing bad will happen to you.
    -try talking to a learned scholar, such as at an al-maghrib seminar
    -get yourself involved in something healthy and fruitful
    -be regular in your salah
    -get up for tahajjud – at the time when Allah Ta’Ala Himself asks his slaves to ask from Him what they desire
    -try not to resent your parents
    -try to forgive the perpetrator and pray for him too, while recognizing that it is indeed a grave evil that he had committed
    -analyze your life, your activities from day till night…ask yourself if you are doing something that would displease Allah Ta’la, spend your time trying to get rid of your bad habits
    -keep praying
    Allah Ta’Ala has made us the best of Creation….our Du’a is more powerful than any evil, any waswasaa of the strongest shayateen…have faith, strengthen your Iman…keep the company of those that mention the name of Allag regularly and in whose company you are more likely to better your deen and duniya…
    Don’t worry…strengthen yourself against the shayateen. InshaAllah Allah Ta’Ala will grant you peace and sakinah.

  67. khorram

    May 8, 2009 at 12:00 AM

    Asalaam-u-aliakum, to all.

    The responsibility of the well-being of a child is in the hands of the parents. When we have the ablity to teach a child that lying, cheating, steeling etc is worng, and that Allah does not like these acts, we should have the ability to address the issue of sex and what is right and wrong at a certain age with our child(ren).

    We have to be the educators, the problem solvers, and mainly the GUIDE that our children need in their life.

    May Allah protect us, from the evil that is within ourselves, and the others, Ameen.

  68. Ummi

    May 16, 2009 at 1:41 AM

    Aslamu alakum
    i am sickened to my stomach, its horrid and i ask all to make dua and ask Allah to protect so many suffering in this way! It’s a reality be it in a muslim household or not, last year when i was travelling the Magrib i met a wonderful 45yr old teacher , who confinded in me that she had been molested in some way by an older relative , starting at when she was just 3yrs old. This issue had never been address and she stil sees the culprit around, it has caused her so much damage in her life till today. Allah Al mustaan Jazakillah hu khyrun for highlighting this evil for all toread and maybe think again about those precious ammanah we are entrusted too.

  69. Anon101

    May 24, 2009 at 6:30 PM

    I really wish I could believe that something bad would happen to all these people who hurt the kids, I know that Allah swt is most just, but I just cant imagine it happening. I just can’t understand how these people will ever realise how much pain they caused the kids.

    JazakAllah khair Umm Reem for posting this, I honestly really do appreciate the time and effort you put into writing this article it is soo important to raise awareness about this. It really frustrates me how so many parents just trust random “auntys/uncles” with their kids. I really hope people read this article and are careful when it comes to their own kids inshAllah.

  70. RegretThePast

    May 31, 2009 at 8:33 AM

    Assalamu Alaykum,

    I would like to point out one thing. Some of these molesters do actually regret what they did. Some of them CHANGE with time. We are all humans, we all did terrible things that we regret, specially at young ages.

    I am a male. Back when I was 6-8 years old I was molested by my male cousin(not rape only touching). As time passed by, the behavior became so natural to me. After several years, he grew up and stopped with these act. I was hitting puberty and extremely confused thus I molested another kid(not rape, only touching).

    Now, after several years has passed, I am EXTREMELY regretting everything I did. I drew closer to islam and found out what I did what very wrong. I very shy and afraid from my past, but what is done is done and I could not change anything.

    Most of these molesters are perverts that deserve to be slaughtered. Thats true, but few of them are good people that are confused and misguided.

    May Allah forgive us all.

  71. z

    August 30, 2009 at 10:49 AM

    JazakAllah Khair for talking about this. For years I’ve felt alone and thought noone would understand me when I tell my story but I know that there are many like me. When I was 8 years old my great grandmother had died and everyone in my family were disraught as she was very much loved. She was to be buried in her native and so my whole family packed ourselves in a van and took off for a 7 hour drive. Since the van was very crowded I was made to sit on my cousin brothers lap. If my mother were there she would have never let me sit there but she had already left for the funeral. As we travelled in the night I felt my cousin reaching into my skirt and tugging my underpants and I dint realize wht he was doing. He touched my private parts and my chest. I could not understand what he was doing. And I never heard of any kind of abuse at that time to realize what it was. I wanted to tell my father who was sitting near us but he was tired recovering from an accident and the news of his grandmothers death threw him off. I wanted to tell somebody but everyone were depressed and sad and I dint want to create a seen

    Till today I havent told my mother although I want to and I know that she will beleive me. The worst part is my father has done a lot for my cousin with regards to his career. Everytime we have a family get together he is always present. Its been 10 years since I last spoke to him. I act like he is invisible while all I really want to do is rip his face off. Everytime I think about that night I feel so disgusted about myself. i want to tell somebody to let it off my chest. I know that if I tell my family ther will be a lot of tension between our families. This is the first time I’m even acknowledging this. I dont know what to do.

  72. Mariam

    October 4, 2009 at 5:42 AM

    I am a British woman in my thirties. When I was 9 years old my father employed a teacher to come to our home and teach my brother and I to read the Quran. I remain traumatised to this day by what happened, by the unspeakable things this teacher did. He would spend perhaps 15 minutes teaching my younger brother and then dismiss him from the room, insisting that the door be closed and that there be no disturbances. He would then have me reading from the Quran while slipping his hands inside my clothing, he would touch and insert fingers. I felt sick, tears would roll down my cheeks but he did not stop.

    It took me weeks to find the courage to tell my mum and when finally I told her she responded with disbelief and anger at me, she could not comprehend that such a thing were possible. As a result the teacher was allowed to continue to come to our home, the abuse went on.

    I can categorically say that I have never before or since felt more profoundly abandoned by those who should have loved and protected me. I beg any parent whose child approaches them on such a matter to listen, to trust your child and to protect them. The damage caused by a parent who failed to act was in my case almost as serious as the abuse itself.

    Why didn’t my mother believe me? It was not because I was prone to telling stories…far from it. I was a quiet and consciencous child, thoughtful and well-behaved. Her disbelief arose from a naive trust that Muslims do not do such things and in particular a religious scholar who had dedicated his life to teaching could not possibly be guilty of such a crime. She was wrong.

    As the abuse went on I retreated inwards, was often tearful, I did what I could to try and protect myself. I found trousers and a sweater that were several sizes too small. It was a struggle to get them on and they restricted my breathing but they achieved their purpose…they were so tight that they prevented his hands from getting inside my clothing.

    I now know that as the weeks went by my mother began to notice the change in me, her happy daughter was becoming morose and withdrawn. Very slowly she began to suspect that I had told her the truth. Eventually she asked the teacher to leave. She did not share her true reasons with my father, fearful of what his reaction would be to the situation. For the next six years those events were never spoken about.

    During that time I had to find my own path to healing. A powerful and sickening association had been formed emotionally between reading the Quran and those unspeakable acts. It is an association that I fear will be with me all the days of my life. I watched with longing as others seemed to derive joy and comfort from those sacred pages and I prayed to Allah to free me from the painful emotions.

    The effect in the end was a withdrawal from faith, I did not want to pray, to read Quran. I felt angry and betrayed. At the muslim girls school I attended I felt it impossible to discuss such issues with anyone. A culture that denies the existence of abuse isolates its victims from the help and support that they so desperately need.

    I was 15 years old when finally I spoke out. I had prepared my father a cup of tea and was bringing it to him when he commented that my younger sister who was then 9 needed to learn to read the Quran more fluently. He said that he was going to re-hire the teacher who had taught me and my brother. My reaction was immediate and intense. Something inside me snapped and I knew in that moment that I was capable of doing absolutely anything to protect her. She would not meet with my fate, I would sooner die than let that happen.

    I objected vehemently to hiring the teacher. When asked why I said I didn’t like him and that someone else should be found. Dad dismissed my objections, accusing me of being rebellious and of rejecting my faith and culture. He said that it wasn’t up to me and he was going to hire the man anyway. At this point I had no choice, I swallowed my fear and did what I should have done years before. I told him what happened.

    Dad flew into a rage, shouted at me, called me a liar. He stormed out of the house. I burst into tears, feeling the pain of his words like a knife. I retreated to my room , reliving the whole experience over and over, the abuse itself, the disbelief of my mother and now the disbelief of my father.

    Dad returned home late that evening, I heard subdued talking between him and Mum. Eventually Mum came to my room and explained what had happened. Dad had gone to the mosque and spoken to the Imam. He had asked about the teacher and related what I had said. The Imam confirmed that other families had reported similar incidents and that the response of the Mosque was to restrict this teacher to working with groups of children at the mosque only. No reports were being made to the police, no other action was being taken.

    This final betrayal by the Imam and by the elders of the mosque marked the beginning of the end of my faith in Islam. So concerned were they with the reputation of the mosque and the community that they would rather sweep such a thing under the carpet than weed out this evil from their midst. They would rather betray innocent children than have the courage to uphold justice in the eyes of God.

    Three years later at University I met a fellow student who to this day epitomises for me what a real Muslim is. She was a quiet, calm thoughtful young woman from Rotherham. She overflowed with genuine caring and compassion for her fellow human beings. While being committed to Islam she remained open-minded and so accepting of others. For the first time in my life I felt I could talk about my experiences, share the crisis of faith that I had experienced. She did not angrily reject me when I confessed to doubting Islam. Instead she offered me a warm and welcoming environment in which to explore my thoughts and feelings and to feel supported and cared for by another Muslim. She contributed a great deal to my healing, something I will be eternally grateful for.

    After University we lost touch. I was in my late twenties when I saw her again. We passed one another in a shopping centre and after a few moments of conversation she introduced me to her daughter who was asleep in a pushchair…”This is Mariam” she said, smiling. I was speechless, totally lost for words, she had named her beautiful little daughter after me. I looked at that child and I knew immediately how safe and loved she was. I knew that what happened to me could never happen to her because she was blessed with parents who were not afraid of the uncomfortable subjects. I knew that this Mariam would be able to tell her mother if something was worrying her no matter what it was and that knowledge filled me with the most tremendous happiness.

    Now in my thirties I look back on my own experiences with great sadness. I see little progress in the community in terms of tackling this issue, attitudes by and large remain closed. It is encouraging however to see this discussion thread and that’s why I felt I wanted to share my story here. If by sharing this the mind of just one person is opened enough to make them vigilant and watchful for this kind of abuse then it will have served its purpose. The muslim world is no more immune to this type of crime than any other and it is the denial of that fact that actively aids the perpetrators in their abuse while intensifying the trauma for victims.


    • Amad

      October 4, 2009 at 11:54 PM

      Thank you for sharing the horrific story Sr. Mariam, as well as the heart-warming last paragraphs.

      Indeed this is despicable. I cannot imagine how parents would not believe their own children. If anything, they could have just OBSERVED for themselves. I mean your mum could have moved the Qaree to a central location in front of everyone or put up a camera or something. And ultimately this teacher should have been thrown in jail… I just don’t buy the nonsense about the “mosque reputation”. I mean the mosque or the Muslims are not responsible for perverts within our communities. Every community has pedaphiles… they need to be taken care of by the criminal agencies, not protected by houses of worship!

      Finally, I am glad that you recognized that the actions of individual Muslims can never be blamed on Islam itself. This is a mistake that feeds Islamophobia among non-Muslims and creates doubts among Muslims… I can only imagine how the pain and betrayal would make this distinction hard, but I hope and pray that you will let the true practice of faith whitewash the darkness left by those who didn’t just betray you, but betrayed Islam.

  73. Secrecy

    October 16, 2009 at 4:31 PM


    SubhanAllaah, these people make me soo angry! and I’m not someone who is easily angered.

    Umm Reem, jazakillahu khayrun for bringing this up, I knew it’s something that is common, yet to this extent, I’m shocked beyond measure.

    I know it hurts, but we should teach our kids now to be confident young mumins, those who are strong, fearing no-one but Allaah, and we as those who are growing up should resonate this confidence in our communites and those around us.

    — One of don’t mess with Islam. Cuz you’ll get it straight back with evidence and you’ll be made quiet (it works wonders if you have the correct akhlaaq :) ) — with some!

    Even as it goes on, if we work on ourselves as individuals, those who have been through this may come to us and we can inshaAllaah help them out.

    May Allaah ‘azza wa jal forgive us and them as the fire is not something that anyone would want to enter. Aameen.

  74. Umm Reem

    October 18, 2009 at 2:48 AM

    Salam alaikum,

    I apologize for not keeping up with the replies here. I was extremely tied up with my move in past six months…

    UmmA: for safe visits, keeping a good and close communications with the kids is the key. Educate them on how to guard them, what is allowed and what is not, speak to them when they come back about how their visit went etc. Also, avoid sending your daughters to a house alone where there are older boys, i.e brothers or uncles.

    Sad Sister: May Allah help you and your brother. If I were you and I failed to convince my parents, I would try to get help from someone else, from somewhere else, even if it takes getting authorities involved, I wouldn’t hesitate.
    Don’t be disheartened at your parents denial, they are not the first ones to do so…there are many…and that is primarily why this evil has widespread in our communities…

    FK: Truly what happened is extremely disheartening…may Allah help you, Although, your parents didn’t assist you, it does mean that you should not try to seek help with someone else. Is there any family you can trust and talk to about this? At the same time, please get some professional help. Also try to find a knowledgeable person and talk to him.

    There is a book, Courage to Heal, try to read it. It comes with a workbook, make sure you get that too.

    Regret the past: May Allah forgive you, may Allah give the courage to the person you molested to forgive you and guide you and the others in your situation.

    • F.K

      October 18, 2009 at 4:19 PM

      Jazakallah Khair,

      Speaking to a family memeber might help alot, but i fear that they would not understand that its a long healing process. i have opened up to two or three people but their reactions were not very understanding. I think its hard to understand because it was a long time ago and they really dont see how it would conflict with my life now.
      But i did look at the book online, hopefully i will order it soon.


  75. Umm Reem

    October 18, 2009 at 3:19 AM

    mariam: Thank you for stepping forward and sharing your story with us. It is indeed a lesson for the parents who prefer to hush up matters then fulfilling their obligations and duties as parents in protecting their children physically and emotionally.

    It is also a lesson for the care takes or our masajids and communities, it is high time they should realize that the reputation of the masjid/imam is not more important then psychologically damaging someone and giving a WRONG impression of the religion to others to the point that they lose trust in their own faith, iyyadhobillah…

    What your parents did is wrong and a terrible mistake on their part but unfortunately, as you must have read in my series, is a typical reaction of parents. I hope and I pray that parents change their approach to this problem and take proper measures in helping their children.

    Dear sister, as for what that evil man did, I have no words to describe the wrong and evil of his action. It is one thing to molest a child but to molest while Allah’s Words are being recited!! It only shows the evil and wickedness of his soul, his diseased heart and mind, ayyodhoillah….

    Although I understand your emotional reaction towards the Quran/Quranic recitation, please do realize and understand that the actions of that evil person should not be a mean to judge the religion itself. Islam is a religion that protects the interest of every single soul, especially children.

    I hope and pray that one day you will be able to study Qur’an keeping the hatred of that man aside, inshaAllah then you will realize the beauty and perfection of Allah’s Words…I hope and pray that it happens soon.

  76. Stinger

    November 15, 2009 at 11:45 PM


    Thank you for this extremely relevant post. It is very upsetting to hear such stories but we have to understand that all human beings have the same capacity to commit evil no matter what their claimed faith is. People have to have a good, true understanding of Islam if they want to claim to be true Muslims.

    Our communities have to get out of denial, we have to have an open, honest relationship between children and parents, trusted elders. People must give basic sexual education to children at a very young age and tell their children to report anyone who misbehaves with them. Honestly, I wouldn’t be satisfied until these perpetrators were justly punished for the pain they’re causing innocent children everywhere.

    No one should leave their children alone with adults of the opposite gender especially if they aren’t trusted, close relatives who you know very well. As for so called “religious” teachers who do this, this is one of the most upsetting category, I heard of such a person in a neighborhood in NY. He was thrown out of the community but people have to report these cases to the police so that we don’t have repeat offenders who’ll just find more victims elsewhere. I hope and pray than everyone who is a victim of sexual predators fully recovers and that the culprits are justly punished and repent for their evil actions.


  77. concerned

    December 30, 2009 at 5:46 PM

    Assalamu alaikum,

    Firstly, may Allah bless you and increase your reward for addressing this pertinent topic – InshaAllah if you could please contact me via email as I need to discuss a few things related to the issue of abuse in the Muslims community.

    Secondly, although I haven’t read the whole article (but will do inshaAllah!) I just wanted to point out and clarify that the response of ‘Noreen’s’ mother is neither strange nor particular to the ‘Muslim’ community. I have done a lot of research in this field and one of the striking things that came out was that ‘denial’ and shock was the ‘normal’ response from parents. Friends, colleagues, people at large appear to be very supportive and empathic but the response from parents is/was not so warm. I think this because it must very difficult if not impossible for a parent to accept their child has been ‘violated’ whilst under their care SubhanAllah! Not only this but they also have to deal with the fact that the person was someone very close to them if not a father, brother, nephew or friend Allahu Musta’an. Someone they trusted – someone who is usually well known and respected in the community. So I guess from that angle it must prove even more painful and the sense of failure as a parent must be profound. A parent – who cares for their child, shelters them from all harm, protects them – SubhanAllah to find your protection, your shelter, your care did not protect your child from violation must be horrific. There are a number of studies on this and I would suggest people research and look into.

    My own research showed that regardless of faith, background and age – disclosure was often very difficult on parents and Allah knows best.

    I’d also like to mention at this point research indicates around 20-25% of people are sexually abused – however, this is only the tip of the iceberg and based upon reported cases. My guess is the figure is much higher. Unfortunately, in the Muslim or perhaps I should say South Asian community it appears to be a very taboo issue and is seldom if ever discussed. For some reason people are very uncomfortable talking about these issues and perhaps feel it doesn’t happen in ‘our community’. I myself have had professional people make comments along the lines of ‘I know it happens but I’d rather not know about it. !!!

    I will end here and look forward to hearing from the author of the article inshaAllah.

    Any good herein is from Allah any errors from myself.

    wasalamu alaikum

    • Umm Reem

      April 12, 2010 at 5:52 AM

      It is very true that this kind of response is common amongst parents regardless of religion or race. From what I have gathered is that mothers, in particular, are afraid of taking a stand and they just want things to remain the way they are…
      I was reading the book ‘Don’t Tell Mommy”, it is really very sad true story of the girl whose mother actually stood by her father, who used to molest her!

      May Allah protect all of us, it maybe because of mothers’ own insecurities, attachment to their husbands or whatever the reason maybe…but sadly it occurs in every culture…

  78. Survivor10

    February 8, 2010 at 3:54 PM

    As Salamu waalaikum. These stories have brought tears to my eyes. By the will of Allah (SWT), I am one of those victims too. Actually, I quite dislike labeling myself as that. I have moved on decades ago and Alhamdulillah have a happy life. Different person reacts/copes differently; I would say I am probably the most easy going person you will meet. I am simple and I take people as they come without adding any judgement which is one of the things that the molester took advantage of. People would probably find it hard to believe such an incident happened in my life. Alhamdulillah. I do not want to give too much away.

    Anyhoo, I am generally an honest person and I hate to lie (No bragging people). I try to stay quiet or avoid something if I fear that the only way getting out of it would be to lie. I am not married and I would hope my ‘past’ would not strain the relationship between me and my husband. I am generally a calm person and can rarely be angry at anyone. Dare I say, I cannot even hate my molester. Islam discourages hatred. I can also say that the reason for not being able to hate the molestor may have little to do with my feeling of guilt. Yeah, the common symptom!

    I can say it with all my heart that I have no complaints to Allah (SWT). Infact, it makes me love Allah (SWT) more with the knowledge that this trial in life could very well save me in the hereafter. Trials are way of cutting down one’s sins. Allah’s (SWT) mercy is truly beautiful.


    What worries me the most is that:

    1. Should I tell this to my future husband? If so, before (what is the gurantee that I will end up with this person) or after marriage(Although it will be a very unpleasant situation for me. Who would want their very first words to be that of something ugly)?

    2. I would like to tell him but I fear he may treat me differently because of that, even if unintentionally. After all, most men wants pure wife. It is an natural instinct to want and care for something in its purest form and I am not blaming men for that. Life is not meant to be simple, I guess!

    If I do not tell him and as a result, if he suspects me (the cultural yada-yada – you know the legendary wedding night mark. I feel disgusted just saying that but who is to say that it would not matter to him or his family! God Forbid, I say. Double standards, I say. But I will have to face the reality one day or night.), and knowing me how I cannot hide a thing if confronted, should I tell him? Poor him, I will be spoiling his big night.

    [Here, I am making a big assumption because my memory of the ‘past’ is not clear and for all you know I might still be erm…pure as they say. Let’s just assume for now. I cannot really run to someone for advice on the big day, as absurd as it may sound. I have this internal debate going on. I dont know if I am or not. Personally, I do not really believe in his cultural tradition. But the more I hear about divorces due to such issues, it worries me and bothers me to no end.]

    I really dislike going into details but I need some advice if I may.

    3. Even if I do tell him and he seems absolutely fine with it, I will deep down worry that it might bother him. And if he does something which hurts me emotionally, theres a very big chance that I will blame my past for that, thinking it does bother him when it may not/when he may be upset with me for something else entirely. (Questions my trust in him does not it? But, my mind cannot help it.)

    I am in a massive dilemma here. I would not want him to think that I am unfaithful to him. My past does not bother me much but it is my future which worries me. I would really hate to disappoint him and make him feel deprived of a pure wife that he could have had if I told him earlier/or if it was not for me being meant to be with him. But, as with most marriages, it is not really possible to discuss such a sensitive issue with the fiancee and who is to say that he will keep it as an amanah? Not to mention, as I said, who is to gurantee that the said person will end up as my husband.

    I would like both brothers’ and sisters’ comment on this, please.

    Jazakallah Khair!

    May Allah (SWT) reward you many many times and many times multiplied for the one who compiled/wrote this article. It really made me understand my self better. May Allah (SWT) help us all muslims live through toughest of times with our Imaan by our side, faith in Allah’s (SWT) mercy in our heart that reaches every corner of our being. Ameen.

    I appreciate the effort from the deepest core of my heart and soul.


    Survive, Never Fall!
    A Muslim can never be in short of honor and worth.

    • concerned

      February 8, 2010 at 4:54 PM


      Assalamu ‘alaikum,

      My dear sister, May Allah remove your worries and replace them with sweet relief and may he grant you a spouse who is a source of comfort in this life and the next. Ameen. I’m going to respond to your post backwards, meaning begin with your worry re marriage and work back from there *smile*

      From your post I ‘pick up’ that although, mashaAllah you say your past does not worry you, it seems it does as you are overly worried about your future marriage. This is not a criticism. Your worry seems to centre around your future husband and the need for him to have a ‘pure gift’ in other words an untouched wife (?). and how you feel by virtue of your past experience, which, by the way you had no control over, you will be spoiling it for your husband and disappointing him.

      The first thing – you had no choice in what was inflicted upon you as a child so how can you be impure? It also appears you think you are pure – so there is doubt. If I recall correctly, one of the scholars was asked re this issue and responded a woman is considered virgin in this situation/case. Alhamdulillah, so let your heart be at ease. Let your doubts and whisperings from shaytan dissipate inshaAllah. For You are pure you are and will be a gift inshaAllah for the fortunate man who weds you!

      What makes you think a brother would not accept you?? There are many brothers who aren’t bothered by these things – not just abuse but even having a past containing relationships etc as long as the sister has reformed and mended her ways (brothers please correct me if I’m wrong!). Secondly, some would be more than happy to wed you knowing they will be your pillar of strength and support, security inshaAllah. I personally know of such a situation. Yes, some don’t like ‘baggage’ but that’s any baggage not just child abuse and Allah knows best. Again, perhaps the brothers can comment on this inshaAllah?

      Moving onto your concerns re the cultural side of things…

      ‘If I do not tell him and as a result, if he suspects me (the cultural yada-yada – you know the legendary wedding night mark. I feel disgusted just saying that but who is to say that it would not matter to him or his family! ‘

      Not sure if you know this but the legendary wedding night mark as you call it is a myth… This you can check simply by googling, there are many things which may cause a woman to forego the mark. It appears shallow that a man and his family may judge a woman based upon this SubhanAllah. Is such a person worth marrying???? How much might Islam play a part in such a person’s life??? That the mere absence of something causes him to become suspicious of his wife’s character??

      You next say…

      ‘Even if I do tell him and he seems absolutely fine with it, I will deep down worry that it might bother him. And if he does something which hurts me emotionally, theres a very big chance that I will blame my past for that, thinking it does bother him when it may not/when he may be upset with me for something else entirely. (Questions my trust in him does not it? But, my mind cannot help it.)’

      MashaAllah you seem like a very sensitive and caring person. Remember he’s a man he knows what the score is and has made an informed decision to wed you! He can deal with it inshaAllah – i.e. the upset etc. This is his issue not yours to worry about. As I said he’s the man!!! Not sure if that’s helpful but I hope you understand the point I’m making – if a man or any person for that matter cannot handle a situation they refrain from it… everyone knows their own limits… Don’t stress inshaAllah!

      I’ll end with a few questions inshaAllah, I’m not sure how to word them as I do not want to cause you any upset, really they are things for you to think about… perhaps I will post them when you reply inshaAllah.

      InshaAllah I hope the above is of use – if I can be of any more help/use/support or anything (!) just let me know inshaAllah. Anything of benefit contained herein is from Allah any error is of my own. Also just to point out the above is not gospel, if readers find any incorrections/inaccuracies please do correct inshaAllah.

      Wasalaamu alaikum

      • Survivor10

        February 8, 2010 at 5:16 PM


        You have infact caused me to smile. You really do know how to ease someone sister. Jazakallah Khair.

        About my point, ‘Even if I do tell him and he seems absolutely fine with it, I will deep down worry that it might bother him.’ :

        I meant, if I told him after the marriage because it is unlikely I will know much of him personally as I am most likely to have an arranged marriage. That’s where my issue is. I do not have any problem with arrangedmarriage itself but the fact that it’s not something I can disclose in front of mehrams (talking to him alone would be inappropriate and would seem suspicious to others).

        You have put things so beautifully and yes, I am still smiling from the relief which I hope lasts.

        I would just like some opinions, that’s all. After all, it depends on the situation.

        *Smiles back*

        I hope all is well with you sister.

        • concerned

          February 8, 2010 at 5:34 PM

          Alhamdulillah it’s good to read you’re smiling! MashaAllah. I pray your ‘relief’ and comfort lasts inshaAllah. Sometimes just ‘airing’ feelings and thoughts can prove to be a huge relief Alhamdulillah.

          I see why you worry now. Thank you for the clarification. You say you could not tell him in front of your mahrems. Is there anyone within your family you could perhaps confide in inshaAllah that might be able to help you in this?

          Would there be any other way of conveying this information to him (once your meetings etc reached a serious stage of course), or perhaps subtly allude to it by way of a general question/comment? Does that make sense? I’m not sure this is helping!

          And now for my questions now from your previous post (I really pray and hope these do not upset you as that is not my intent).

          – You mentioned you seldom if ever get angry. may I ask why? is there any particular reason for this? I was tempted to give examples but will refrain as I don’t want to put ideas into your head!
          – You also mention forgiveness mashaAllah. You have forgiven your molester. In fact you say you cannot even hate him’ why can you not hate him?? Again, I’m not wanting to put words in your mouth inshaAllah. Just things for you to think about and maybe share your thoughts I’d be very interested.
          – One more thing… I maybe wrong but you appear or at least I sense that you are a perfectionist(??) Things have to be right(?)

          Looking forward to your response…

          wasalamu alaikum *smile*

          • survivor10

            February 8, 2010 at 5:56 PM

            It is ok sister. Sharing may help someone else or people who are studying these cases.

            I am very sure they would ask me to just leave it at that or that I am making a big fuss. I am making an assumption here, of course.

            We tend to use the word hate so loosely in our daily life, that in most times, it actually means nothing.I never really hated anyone in life, to be honest. I think, the reason because I cannot be bothered to hate him is because if I truly were to hate him, the amount would be so great that adding all the hatred of every single human being born to this earth would not be enough for me to express my disgust in his act. I think guilt plays a little role in it too. I fear Allah (SWT) may be diappointed in me if I were to hate another human. But, I cannot say for certain that I have forgiven him. It would be hard to forgive from the heart. It is easier to just utter the word ‘forgive’ which is not really forgiveness. My mind gets blocked when I try to question myself on it. Truth be told, I consider him as someone who is non existant.

            As for rarely being angry, it probably has nothing to do with this. I am a very cheerful person and loved by people around me for it. Not sure if it’s genetic or not, but that’s just me.

            Your last comment got me laughing. Spot on, sister. If I dearly want something, I do not give up. But, if I do not get something after trying everything, I move on. But Allah (SWT) is most merciful and I would do well to not complain if I did not get something. But, it is not about getting something, it is rather more about doing a task as perfectly as I can. Then again,my upbringing may have something to do with this. What gave it away, may I ask?

        • concerned

          February 8, 2010 at 6:13 PM

          ‘I am very sure they would ask me to just leave it at that or that I am making a big fuss. I am making an assumption here, of course.’

          refer to bold above. – I don’t know your background, hmmm… asian?? someone you trust – sibling etc. As you said you are making an assumption. *smile*

          ‘I think, the reason because I cannot be bothered to hate him is because if I truly were to hate him, the amount would be so great that adding all the hatred of every single human being born to this earth would not be enough for me to express my disgust in his act…’

          As you point out perhaps you are afraid of the level of hatred you have for this person best not ‘air’ it kinda thing?

          ‘…But I cannot say for certain that I have forgiven him. It would be hard to forgive from the heart. It is easier to just utter the word ‘forgive’ which is not really forgiveness. My mind gets blocked when I try to question myself on it. Truth be told, I consider him as someone who is non existant.’

          You don’t know if you have forgiven him and how much you hate him in reality because your mind is not able to cope with it (?) to such an extent that as you put it, you find it easier to think of him as someone who is not in existence. I guess the pain perhaps is so great you have blocked the whole thing out(?). Again I maybe wrong – please do feel free to correct.

          ‘What gave it away, may I ask?’

          This made me laugh… *smile* what gave you away ?? Reading between the lines I just saw it…
          your choice of words, the structure of your post, what you didn’t say as opposed to what you did sayall of this gave you away to me!

          If I don’t respond to your subsequent post today I will do tomorrow inshaAllah. Have a good day and I look forward to your response.

          • survivor10

            February 8, 2010 at 6:30 PM

            Now that you mentioned it, I sat here thinking for a while. I think, the reason why I do not want to feel angry is because I do not want him to ‘win’! I refuse to let him have the final goal or score.

            The last thing I would let myself do is to allow my life to revolve around my hatred for someone like him. Something that I might share with other ‘survivors’ or may be not. (You can see why i do not like to call myself a victim)

            I have accepted what has happened to me , just a bit worried about any consequences it may bear in future. Allah (SWT) tests us from time to time after all. I see it as a test.

            Ok take care sister InshaAllah.

  79. Survivor10

    February 8, 2010 at 4:14 PM

    If me staying unmarried would ensure a man his ‘gift’, i would have gladly and quite happily done so. I would not want him to FEEL that he has been blessed with ‘bad luck’. But, Marriage is half of deen. I doubt my parents would let me stay unmarried forever.

    I am analyzing my dilemma from so many angles that now my head hurts!

    Do look forward to your thoughts, InshaAllah.

    • concerned

      February 9, 2010 at 10:15 AM

      Assalamu ‘alaium,
      hope you are well inshaAllah I enjoyed our conversation yesterday. You say you do not feel angry because you don’t want him to ‘win’. Could it be you are controlling this anger so you can continue with life? It’s good mashaAllah you are living life without allowing it to affect you. having said that I believe some of youyr words do indicate perhaps it does affect you??? For example in one of your posts you said that if your remaining unwed would cause a man to gain his ‘gift’ i.e. a untouched pure woman you would do so as you don’t want him to feel he has gained ‘bad luc’. you appear more worried about your potential husbands needs and wants than yourself. A question, if I may? Do YOU not have NEEEDS and WANTS perhaps in some cases more dire than your potential spouses considering the trauma YOU have suffered?? could it not be that the man WORRIES he will not be able to fulfil YOUR needs and wants and give you the LOVE and care YOU deserve? CHERISH and protect you as you deserve to be//??

      just my thoughts

  80. concerned

    February 8, 2010 at 5:00 PM

    ‘(Questions my trust in him does not it? But, my mind cannot help it.)’

    re the questioning your trust in him, then, sister this is understandable – your trust was betrayed in the worst way possible. In order to rebuild that you will need time, space and understanding. There’s nothing wrong with you at this point feeling as you do. InshaAllah over time when you are in a safe, secure, equal relationship where you are not taken advantage of things will change.

  81. Najmo

    March 23, 2010 at 1:22 PM

    the parents molesting their kids are sick
    the mom if she now any thing about her daughter getting molested she has to tell to the capps

    that’s what i feel
    Najmo Hassan

    • Brother

      December 17, 2010 at 3:11 AM

      I can’t really think of a reason why on earth a parent would do this to their kid other than total and utter brainwashing by the TV (media). Talk about indoctrination. Shamelessness is in vogue and now even parents can’t control themselves?

  82. Mariam

    April 5, 2010 at 2:54 AM

    On December 10th 2009 Yusuf Mangera of Leicester, England was sentenced to two and a half years in prison for six counts of sexual abuse that he perpetrated against me when I was a child. The trial was by jury and took place at Leicester Crown Court. I can honestly say that taking the stand and telling the court and jury what happened is the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my entire life. Being subjected to cross-examination by his defence barrister was gruelling and it is an experience that will stay with me forever.

    However, coming forward was something I absolutely had to do and I now feel like a great weight has been lifted. I know there are other cases out there, other girls like me in Leicester who were taught Quran by this man, other girls who were also violated in the worst possible way. I pray that in time they will also find the courage to come forward.

    In her summing up, his defence barrister cited what an upstanding member of the community he was. She referenced his charity work, over 30 children he has ‘adopted’. What on earth does this mean? Has he been travelling abroad, perhaps to India and gaining access to young orphaned girls? It chills me to imagine what might have happened. I just wish I had found the strength to report this sooner myself; I am so deeply sorry for failing any child as a result of my own delay in coming forward.

    I may be nearly three decades late but I have righted the situation as best I can and I just hope that some time soon other victims may step forward and be heard too. I hope more than anything that this man will be prevented from ever harming another child for as long as he lives.

    Survivor10…Sister, I understand your concerns about the future. Telling my husband was an immense struggle, I worried greatly about how he would respond. Looking back though I know that telling him was an important part of the healing process for me, he was so supportive. His response was anger and disgust towards the perpetrator not towards me. I feel that sharing these painful and traumatic events has actually increased our trust and bond with one another. I am blessed indeed and I hope sincerely that you will be too one day.


    • Amad

      April 5, 2010 at 3:20 AM

      Thank you for sharing Mariam. What a brave decision you took… may Allah reward you much for the stand that you took for yourself and many other victims of this silent abuse.

    • Amatullah

      April 5, 2010 at 12:11 PM

      Sister Mariam, may Allah reward you for what you did and make the healing process easy for you. SubhanAllah, what tremendous courage you have.

    • Umm Reem

      April 12, 2010 at 6:57 AM

      JazakAlalh khiar for sharing sister mariam…you have not only set an example for the survivors, but even for those who want to help them that it is never too late to take a stand. May Allah reward u.

  83. sis

    April 17, 2010 at 8:27 PM


    > Assalamu ‘alaikum my dear Muslims
    > My story unfortunately is familiar to too many people in our community. My
    > abusers were known to me from a young age. I was six or seven as fa as I can
    > remember an innocent girl, gullible and naïve. When a far relative told me
    > he’d give me a present if I came to his room, I didn’t think twice. It was a
    > present I could have done without, but truly I was so young I didn’t realize
    > it was wrong.
    > As I grew older I experienced different levels of abuse by five different
    > men which culminated in my rape by a blood relative when I was a young
    > teenager, I would have preferred to have been attacked by a stranger than
    > a relative as at least I would never have to see a stranger again as it is, every
    > time I see him I give my salaam and pay my non-existent respects.
    > The very people who were supposed to protect me took away my dignity and
    > scarred me for life; I lived in my isolated grief for many years and
    > subsequently did things I still can’t admit to. Consequently my ideas of
    > right and wrong, love, affection and happiness was warped because my past
    > was warped and distorted, I had suicidal thoughts and wished that I had
    > never existed.
    > I was too ashamed to tell anyone in my family (how to explain to someone that thier brother raped their own daughter!!)
    due to previous observations I felt that they wouldn’t believe me, the disgrace would have
    > been too much too bear, I could see that the tradition within our culture
    > was to brush it under the carpet even if it meant continuing the
    > relationship with the abuser as normal, this inadvertently gives him the
    > licence to move onto other members of the family.
    words fail me as i try to reconcile with this idea
    i feel ashamed at my parents for keeping ties with these people,
    > Allah says in the Qur’an: “O you who believe! Betray not Allah and His
    > Messenger, nor knowingly your amanat (the things entrusted to you and all
    > duties which Allah has ordained for you) [TMQ 8:27]
    > Eventually I came to Islam and confided in a trustworthy sister, she gave me
    > strength, told me that Allah does not burden a soul with more than it can
    > bear and that Allah tests those who He loves. Qadaa became a concept I
    > sought refuge in and I struggled less with my undeserved guilt.
    > Alhamdulillah.
    > As my understanding grew I came to realize that these people hold a view of
    > life which is of freedom, this leads them to seek sensual gratification in
    > any way they can whether it is little girls or little boys, right and wrong
    > is thrown out of the window and accountability is never an issue, they don’t fear Allah
    > In Islam we say there are no taboo’s i.e. you can discuss anything and the
    > first people you should be able to go to is your family, your protectors and
    > guiders. Yet we see that in reality, people don’t hold Islam as their
    > yardstick rather cultural values are what dictate their idea’s, this results
    > in abused victims unable to confide in those they love and trust and paedophiles left
    > to abuse more.
    > “They may hide (their crimes) from men, but they cannot hide from Allah; for
    > He is with them (by His knowledge) [TMQ 4: 108]
    > People view that their honour is disgraced or that somehow an innocent child is
    > responsible, this is a dangerous concept as it lifts the blame from the
    > abusers, the truth is that these paedophiles have defied our honour and
    > broken their covenant with Allah (swt) and made their desires their way of
    > life, they are the ones who should hang their heads in shame and fear the
    > wrath of Allah
    > “To Allah belongs all that is in the heavens and all that is on the earth,
    > and whether you disclose what is in your own selves or conceal it, Allah
    > will call you to account for it. [TMQ 2; 284]
    > People react to problems differently some begin to hate men others go to any
    > for some type of retribution. Neither will give you any peace. Western
    > culture being reactionary will tell you its ok to seek revenge and will make
    > excuses for your behaviour, eastern culture being suppressive tells you to
    > pretend it didn’t happen. Neither helps you to reconcile within yourself.
    > Islam has its own unique therapy I take much solace in Allah’s promise of
    > Justice where He (swt) says:
    > “And we shall remove from their breasts any (mutual) hatred or sense of
    > injury (which they had, if at all, in the life of this world) [TMQ 7: 43]
    > Every time I felt wronged I remind myself of my own accountability as i notived that any problem that arises, gets blame shifted on these incidents even when it has nothing to do with it
    > when I felt suicidal I remember that Prophet (saw) said:
    > “none of you should long for death, for if he is a good-doer, he may
    > increase his good deeds” Bukhari
    > I will never close the book on what happened to me but I can resolve it
    > using the concepts that Allah has given me, talk myself through my problems,
    > make Dua and seek comfort from friends and family. There comes a time when
    > you have to move on or it takes over your life, controls you and consumes
    > you
    > I believe that had the Muslim community carried Islamic values and pushed
    > the correct viewpoint much of this would be easier to bear, if they opened
    > their eyes and saw the injustice then maybe next time it won’t be their
    > daughter or sister or nephew, if we as a community address the issue rather
    > than hide behind it perhaps we could become the beacon of light for others.
    > Some of the measures that we need to use in order to eradicate this problem
    > involves us working as a community.
    > • This means to change our attitudes from that of keeping cultural
    > understanding to one of holding Islamic values on all levels of life.
    > • To create general awareness and not view it as a taboo subject
    > • To not ostracize those who go through it or backbite them, bearing in mind
    > that they are the victims
    > • Apply the Islamic social system in our homes whereby unaccompanied
    > children are not left with people of dubious character. and separate beds at a young age etc.
    > • To encourage those going through it to open up and not lay responsibility
    > on themselves.
    > • To support and create help groups or organisations to aid the victims
    > giving people the avenue by which they can seek help and not suffer alone.

    and finally most importantly to establish a state whereby these people can be punished in the way Allah decreed and create a deterent for those who think they can get a way with it

    > I believe that had these measures been in place it would have been easier
    > for me to seek help a long time ago. I do not believe that this phenomenon
    > is endemic to Muslims rather it is something that shouldn’t exist at all,
    > because Allah has guided us on how we should satisfy ourselves. We cannot
    > afford for this to continue as it becomes excess baggage in our lives, we
    > take it to our marriage, our children and our future and this in the end
    > becomes our downfall
    > My advice for those suffering is to seek help, as it will only get worse if
    > not for you then for the next in line, ask Allah (swt) for guidance and
    > Towfiq (strength) and remember that justice will be served.
    > I write this statement on behalf of all of us who have ever gone through
    > this and those still taunted, to not give up hope nor despair for Allah
    > (swt) sees all and knows all.
    Assalamu ‘alaikum, sister Mariam, i would like to say how much i admire you’r courage for protecting other muslimah’s from the same potential pain,
    i too am faced with this same dilemma, but i dont think i could do what you have done.
    May Allah keep us from this harm and grant us guidance

  84. Muhammad

    May 28, 2010 at 10:48 PM

    ok can some one tell me what punishment does islam prescribe for the molestaton of boy and or a girl

  85. ummahsn

    June 10, 2010 at 5:31 AM

    great post informal artical .sharing a quick info that we now have our own islamic social network .Requesting to join to all brother and sisters from the globe .lests see how many we can gather .
    Each of your sign up is a help to muslim ummah .
    jazak ALLAH

  86. muslimah

    August 31, 2010 at 8:30 AM

    what really kills me is how my own mother denies what happened..the incident itself does not hurt as much her actions. 10+ yrs later i still have resentment for the way she handled the situation. In my culture a woman’s honor is judged by her hymen or lack thereof..because of what i had to go thru in the name of culture, i have grown to hate it..i detest all men from my culture or at least the ones who follow it under the mask of Islam.
    Im sick of carrying this burden on my shoulders..sick of arguing with my mom..she says im disobedient when i question her abt the basis of of a particular tradition and if its from Islam. I cant bear to see my dad ignoring me esp becoz iwas always closer to him then mom. My mom tells him how disobedient and badtameez im simply becoz i was questioing her culture and its basis in Islam. I admit i make mistakes, im not perfect but i will never associate my wrong doings with islam.
    it’s the last 10 days of ramadan, im fasting, and yet i feel so down. Im sick of being alone. I guess i’ll just ask for Allah to take me back..i dont want to live. f*** the world.

    • Goddess

      August 6, 2012 at 10:26 PM

      You are a warrior! I know what happened to you humiliating and violating, but you have accepted it and the truth is better than denial. However, what you can do, is protect your children if you have them from this nightmare, by being overly protecting of who’s around them. Most importantly, you can’t run from what has happened to you, it is part of you. Not demeaning you in anyway,but the truth is always better on a subconscious level. I am also a an adult victim of childhood sexual abuse, and trust me, I know the anger and rage that comes from it. But, in no way, I’m I going to try to forget about it or pretend that it did not happen, because it did. I have accepted it as part of my identity, and I am overly protective of my children because of it. Child Sexual abuse is downplayed in most societies as a minor occurrence; that’s not true, because most victims do not share their stories, and some flat out deny that it happened. And, why? it is fear and embarassment that comes with it. No one wants to relive the sexual abuse that occurred to them during their childhoods; they would rather hide those demons because they know that they are too painful to deal with. But, you are an exception, you have risen above all others and have gone through painstaking emotions to get this out in the opening. I believe if more people revealed their experiences, it would reduce the number of children being sexually abused in families;but until that happens, unfortunately, there will always be large numbers of victims. Don’t be ashamed of your past. You did nothing wrong

  87. Mariam

    September 3, 2010 at 12:13 PM

    Hi muslimah,

    Your words sound so familiar to me, you are not alone. My mum failed to act when I told her what was happening to me because she could not believe that a Koran teacher could do such things to a 9 year old girl. It was weeks before she was finally persuaded and then she simply sent him away and didn’t tell anyone or do anything about what had happened. Years later my Dad was talking about bringing this man back to teach my younger sister and so when I was 15 I was left with no choice but to tell him myself what had happened. He called me a liar and stormed out of the house. Later my mum told me that he had spoken with people at the mosque and this teacher was now known for molesting young girls. The Imam had decided that he should now only be allowed to teach children in groups. The police were not involved and the whole thing was hushed up.

    I can honesty say that through all of this injustice the thing that hurt me the most was my own mother not believing me and then failing to act. I have never before or since felt so betrayed by someone who should have loved and protected me. Her recollection of events is to this day very far from reality, she is so much in denial.

    The result was that I spent my teenaged years and early twenties feeling very angry indeed. I was furious at a family and community that allows such things to happen and then cares more for reputation and appearances than it does for the protection of its children.

    I believe it is normal and natural for you to feel the way you do right now. As a teenager my parents described me as rebellious, they accused me of rejecting my faith and culture and in many ways they were right. But they let me down so very badly and looking back I was entitled to feel the way I did, it was the only way for me to work through the harm that had been caused.

    Last year my own journey towards healing took me to court. I finally found the strength and courage to report those childhood events to the police. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do but I stood before a judge and jury and told my story. The teacher was found guilty and sent to prison for two and a half years. I now hope and pray that other victims of this abuser will also come forward and that the silence truly be broken.

    As a victim of childhood sexual abuse, I too felt that I did not want to live anymore; I wanted to escape a life that felt so lonely and cruel. I promise you that it passes; you can heal and recover from this. Something that also happened to me during these events is that I grew to believe that I was bad; the things my parents said crept in to my beliefs about myself. It took me a long time to learn to see myself in a positive light again. I was not bad, I was a child who had been hurt and betrayed and I was entitled to question the cultural values that continue to allow children to be harmed in this way.

    I wish you so much healing sister; I wish I could ease your struggle in some way. It grieves me deeply that what happened to me so many years ago continues to happen in Muslim communities all around the world. That’s why I am so happy this website is here and that more of us are now starting to tell our stories. It is time for change.


    • Brother

      December 17, 2010 at 3:20 AM

      I’ve seen undeserving people be the victims of mob attacks on youtube, the same thing should have happened to this “teacher”. He can teach to groups of kids now? Mind boggling

    • Goddess

      August 6, 2012 at 10:11 PM

      The fact is…most of these cases are never reported and the perpetrator goes on with his or daily life and continues to molest other children. That’s sad. A reason why, is that, most perpetrators of these crimes are related to the victims, and families don’t want to expose the perpetrator and go to the extremes of hushing the victim. It’s great that you received justice and this perp went to prison. But sadly, most of the time, they resume their normal lives and are never punished

  88. duva

    September 13, 2010 at 11:58 AM

    I dont understand why abuse is not reporterd by parents? I was 4 when my dad’s brother started abusing me in my own house. I know it was not my fault that it happened obviously I was 4 what did I know and of course nobody talks about or mentions sex or anything related to it in Pakistan. Why is it such a taboo task. I glad that some of you brothers and sisters found someone to confide in. I am still looking for that someone. I 21 now I dont know I mean I told my friend once and all she said was have faith in Allah, pray and ask him for help. I lost faith in Allah after I realized what had happened to me. I realized what happened when I came to U.S, I was 9. I saw article on molestation. I lost faith in religion, I pray but when i get flashes of what happened to me, I get so depressed. How can Allah let such a thing happen to me? I have been wondering for years how to tell mom. I have never been able to talk to her about anything, I doubt she will believe me. I dont know, its been really hard for me to move on with life.

    • Umm Reem

      September 15, 2010 at 7:00 AM

      Dear duva,

      indeed what happened to you was wrong and unfortunate and i am sure that the pain and grief of it can never be described in words…I hope and I pray that your wounds are healed and that you find peace and contentment one day…

      We, as Muslims, believe that unfortunate things happen to us, at times because of our own actions and at times as a test/trial from Allah to raise our ranks in Paradise. As He said in Qur’an (which means):

      “Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: “We believe,” and will not be tested. And We indeed tested those who were before them. And Allah will certainly make (it) known (the truth of) those who are true, and will certainly make (it) known (the falsehood of) those who are liars, (although Allah knows all that before putting them to test).” (29:2-3)

      The judgment of Allah is not unfair. we don’t’ understand why certain things happen to us at times and we tend to question His Decree but He knows very well why He tests His slaves and He will judge each and every case based on the situation/background and how the slave responses to the situation…

      My advice to you is to sicnerly call upon the Lord who created you and ask for help…do this persistently for sometime and I am sure that you will find a way out, inshaAllah.

      • Goddess

        August 6, 2012 at 10:06 PM

        Sorry, what you are saying makes no sense. Allah is supposed to protect children from harm, but instead he sits be idly and allow this to happen. This makes no sense. Has it ever occurred to you that Allah, is a fictional character that doesn’t exist? Think about it: if Allah was a loving, just God, wouldn’t he disable and stop the perpetrator from raping innocent children? If anything, Allah supports the rape and mistreatment of children and doesn’t care about them. I really think you should do some soul searching and analyze the destruction that is bestowed upon innocent children. Also, as of believers, Allah should honor them with more protection from mayhems than that of laxed believers. So, what is the point in worshipping him, if he doesn’t pay homage and provide restitution for his believers , and especially, that of children who cannot defend themselves? Sorry, it makes no sense at all. This is a poor excuse to allow the abusers to continue mistreating and sexually abusing poor, innocent children. We can’t just standby and wait for Allah; we have to do something about this to protect our children. I know I have committed apostasy but I don’t care. Most importantly, it is the children who’s lives are in jeopardy, and they are the ones who needs help the most.

      • Junaki

        January 3, 2014 at 6:17 PM

        Is this thread still active?

    • Goddess

      August 6, 2012 at 9:54 PM

      There is no God, honey. As you mentioned if there was a caring, god, how could he allow something like this to happen to an innocent child; and, why didn’t God stop the perpetrator from committing this abuse?. It makes no sense, does it? of course not. God is a mythical fiction being that does not exist, and therefore, can’t help innocent children who needs him the most. I believe that you are a brave woman and has great insight on how family members are the main perpetrators of this type of crime. Family members have access to children, whether it is cousins, in-laws, aunts, uncles,etc, they are the ones who do these sorts of things. You can move on with your life as long as you don’t try to diminish that this occurred to you. Accepting the truth is the best thing to do because you cannot transcend what has happened to you, but you can use this horrific experience to protect your children in the future. Sexual abuse of children isn’t a new phenonemon; it has been going on since the beginning of time and still is in full force as of today. And the main reason why, is that children are the most vulnerable and are treated with little or no regard as human beings. Unfortunately, children are in the most worse position than that of adults. Children can’t just up and leave their families because they have no rights, and parents are in a sense, their slave owners. Sad but true. Also, the cycle of sexual abuse will continue because it is handed down from generation to generation. It is a learned behavior and perpetrators are only doing what has been done to them. I know that this may sound strange but it is the truth. As of you, you have acknowledged what has happened to you, but the majority of sex abuse victims do not. They do not want to talk about and keep their emotions bottled up. And, if and when this occurs to their children, they will often chastise them because they don’t want to relive their torment So, you have an upper edge by revealing your torment, and most likely, you will be more cautious of family members around your children. I think you are a brave individual, and you can and have moved on with your life. But most importantly, if you have children or when you do, protect them so that they won’t become victimized by this. Take care

  89. Mariam

    September 14, 2010 at 4:43 PM

    Dear duva,

    I hope so much that you soon find someone in your life who you feel able to confide in. Have you thought about seeing a counsellor or psychotherapist? Perhaps confiding in a professional may help you to overcome the flashes you are experiencing and the resulting depressed feelings. I found counselling very helpful for me.

    If you do find the courage to tell your Mum, be prepared for the possibility that she won’t believe you. Mine didn’t believe me and that hurt me a lot. I imagine for many parents it is hard to believe such things because they are so shocking. There is also the assumption among many muslims that another muslim could not commit such acts. However there is crime and abuse in every community, faith and country. Believing that muslim communities are immune is dangerously naive and wrong.

    If a mother (or father) acknowledges that their child has been abused, this may cause feelings of guilt about failing to spot what was going on and failing to protect their own child. In the case of my mother her distorted view of what happened enables her to avoid many of these uncomfortable feelings. That is why I believe she still to this day does not fully acknowledge all that happened.

    As I said to ‘muslimah’ in an earlier post I think it is perfectly natural for you to question your faith as a result of what has happened to you. I did exactly the same thing. I really believe you can heal from this trauma and one day the flashes and depressed feelings will be gone.

    Be well,


    • duva

      September 23, 2010 at 7:05 PM

      yea; I went to counseling one time. it was so hard to talk about it. the more I talked about it the worse it felt because it refreshed the memories and made it seem as if it happened yesterday. Since counseling thing have gotten worse for me. I feel more suicidal now than before. Every night I have nightmare about it and just feel as if it would be better for me to die than to live through the pain everyday.

  90. Mariam

    September 28, 2010 at 2:07 AM

    Hi duva,

    I am so sorry you didn’t find counselling helpful. Perhaps it is not the right route for you. You express the wish to confide in someone about these events, perhaps doing that here has helped a little? Or maybe there is a friend in your life you could think about talking to? It worries me that you feel suicidal; no one should have to cope with such feelings alone. Perhaps this is something you could discuss with your doctor?

    I would like to be able to offer Islamic words of encouragement but I have yet to find my own way home in this respect. I do not know if I will ever recover the strength of faith that I once had, that is the price of these devastating events. But all of us are different and if comfort can be found in the word of God for you, perhaps that is something you might pursue too?

    I do want to say that the suicidal feelings did very much go away for me and the wounds are most definitely healing. I am no longer depressed, my sleep is not disturbed, I have found sources of happiness and fulfilment in my life. I am a living and breathing example of someone hurt very badly like you who has recovered and I wish with all my heart that you can find your own route to healing. Perhaps that is a journey you have already begun by talking here?

    Take care,


  91. Tbejb

    September 28, 2010 at 3:50 PM

    Are there any Lawyers that can fight cases against men like these. I know of a molester(65yrs), he is living in the US. I hate to see him live a normal, happy life despite of his crime coming out in open, His entire familyont of his son and wife and daughter.

    As much as I want him to taste Allah’s Punishment for what he did. I want him to be punished and ashamed in this world as well.

    Please send me contacts of any good lawyers who will fight to get him what he deserves.

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  93. Umm Omar

    October 19, 2010 at 12:14 AM

    as Salamu alaykum wa rahamathullah,

    I am writing this mail in regards to translate and use this article in my blog. I write a blog in Tamil and i planned to use this article to bring awareness to all parents insha Allah. I am sorry that in curiosity, I forgot to get your permission first, but I have started the first part with due credits. If brothers / sisters team of Muslim matters have any issues, kindly let me know. Jazakumullah Khayr.

    wa Salam,

    • Amad

      October 19, 2010 at 12:18 AM

      salam Umm Omar
      Sounds like you are doing a great service.

      Pls see this link:

      This should answer your question. In general, credit (link to the original article) is the key.


  94. Umm Omar

    October 21, 2010 at 12:36 PM

    wa alaykum as salam brother Amad,

    Yes I have full detail in my article. But I have not given web-link, because whom I address is a non-Muslim and Muslim audience. And I thought this may bring a issue like ‘oh so Muslims also do this’ kinda comments. (because I have seen more anti Islamic and anti Muslim blogs in my language who are jus waiting to spit on us for any reason) However, personally whoever asked me for source article, I have given the full reference with links. Hope this is fair use. If you want me to put the credit link in any case, I can still do it. Kindly let me know. JAZK.

    wa Salam,
    Umm Omar

  95. Sara Khan

    December 17, 2010 at 3:36 AM

    I want to share my story with you. This is from my book that I have just written. My book is going to be published next year. I want to reach out to all victims how I gained my inner peace. You can also get there.

    I was born into a traditional Hindu family with a large, close knit extended family. I came from a family of five children, I was the eldest child. My nightmare all started at the age of three. The sexual abuse began while we were living at my Grandmother’s house and was at the hands of my Dads brother. I just a little girl who craved my family’s love and trust, I did not understand what was happening. The abuse stopped when I was eight years old from my Dads brother but the sexual abuse started again when I was sexually abused again from age of eight by my mom’s brother. At the age of three I also witnessed a rape in front of me, my sister and brother. My nightmare went on until my teens. I didn’t know at the time that all the elders in the family already knew about my abuse with the first uncle. I found that out when I was putting my past right myself at the age of Forty. My mum had told my dad and his reply was all men do this its normal behaviour. I was suffering in silence, and itching to speak to someone. I couldn’t talk to anyone as my voice wouldn’t come out and I would freeze even if I thought about it. I then went to India for a holiday and that’s where my mom’s brother sexually abused me. I was only eight, and I was there for six weeks and this would happen when I was at his house. I was so confused and lost in the world of my own. Was this normal behaviour and did all girls go through this? That message would go round and round in my head. I came back from India after six weeks. I was OK for a while as I was living back at my parents’ house and that was my comfort zone. No one could touch me now although my first abuser was living next door. I was safe, felt that my ordeal was over and I could be that little girl again. That’s what I would say to myself. Then I heard my mom’s brother was coming to England to get married and he was going to live with us. He did finally come to live with us when I was around ten and in my mind I had blanked what had happened in India. My uncle came to live with us, and the sexual abuse started again and it went on until my teens. I did tell my family again at 17, but no one came back to me. So it carried on.
    It took me 40 years to sort my life out. I am at peace know. I have wrote a book, which is going to be published next year. This will help other victims reach survivor stage. You can also visit my website. You can read abit more about my story and where I am with my life.

    My lovely eyes are sparkling once again

    Looked into the mirror and saw my eyes smiling back at me
    They were so full of joy and happy to return to rightful owner
    Bright and sparkling like the sun shine that was glaring so bright
    Never have i seen that glare in my eyes before this time
    Had to look into the mirror twice no three times to believe
    Did them eyes really belong to me am i the owner
    How did i come to get this look once again
    I cant recall seen that look within me before
    I liked it so much i kept looking at them eyes
    Had a giggle out load no one was around to share
    I love this new me that i have become
    I love my self yes I do

    A happy poem from me. Yes I am happy and it feels so good.

    If you have any questions or need help. Please email me. That is my role as God found me, I am his helper.

    Sara Khan

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  97. Anonymous

    January 15, 2011 at 11:59 PM

    I knew someone in college who was molested by his aunt. His brother was too but they never spoke to each other about it. Because I was friends with both of them, when one brother told me about it, I realized the other had been molested too. His aunt would take him on the pretense of babysitting him (since his mother had 5 kids). She would make him do things to her and once his uncle walked in on them. She told his uncle that she was changing and the boy walked in accidentally. He was 8. After that experience, he became extremely promiscuous. He had multiple girlfriends and affected many girls lives by cheating lying and abusing them.
    We have to protect our sons as well as our daughters. I don’t leave my kids alone with anyone. The world is a disgusting place and we need to protect our children to the maximum we can.

  98. Mohamad

    January 16, 2011 at 11:49 PM

    I disagree with the author’s flagrant attack on all molesters as being evil.

    Indeed, there are many convicted molesters that are entirely innocent, because in western courts of law, children are often mistaken as being completely innocent and cannot lie.

    In a case where I know perpetrator extremely well, he was leaning forward at a meeting where the venue used cheap plastic garden chairs. He was leaning forward to get a view of the speaker and the front legs collapsed, catapulting him forward where his arms naturally went forward to stop impact. His right hand made contact with the upper rear leg of a ten year old girl who just happened to like him a lot. He wasn’t aware that what he thought of as being just material, may have been her genitals. He tried a few times to pull himself away from her, as he was off balance and after a couple of seconds had managed to get his other leg under his body and return to his chair. He tried to apologize to her. After this incident, the girl changed her position to standing close by his side for the rest of the meeting, so he didn’t think she was hurt by the incident. A couple of months later, he was at her house to work on her father’s computer when this girl waited for her father to leave and then asked him for sex. He was shocked and instantly refused her. At his refusal, she evidently told all her friends that he had abused her. So they tried at every chance to set him up for more charges, which they ended up having to fabricate, because he never did anything wrong. He was absolutely astounded when police knocked on his door, nearly 6 months after the incident and he was eventually charged with sexual assault on 3 fabricated accounts and not even on the only actual incident, simply because the court’s refusal to believe that children can lie and conspire together.
    These lies have cost him dearly in both public respect, caused him to lose his coaching job and though his entire family know him to be innocent, he finds it hard to face the public and sometimes contemplates suicide. Yet, this man is definitely innocent, but, will never get a fair trial in current western law that has a childhood innocence dogmatic stance that those of us who know the science nature, is false!
    Yes, children do lie and can be extremely convincing liars.

    • Saudi Arabia

      June 17, 2011 at 3:01 AM

      Quick question, how did you come to know that this 10 year old liked this man a lot as a fact? Another thing is that there is evidently bias in your statements, because you know the “perpetrator extremely well”. I’m not rushing to judgement eitherway, but this seems to be the pattern of family members who take the side of perpetrators and shove blame to children, especially if the child is a girl, due to some garbage excuse like ‘honor’.

  99. Ombio

    January 17, 2011 at 1:26 AM

    In our district, many young girls in their last year of primary education (aged 11 or 12) are actively seeking sexual relationships in order to be accepted by peer groups that they know exist in the secondary schools.

    I’ve often witnessed young girls crying loudly because they have only a few months to go before they will be entering secondary education as a virgin and fear they won’t be accepted by a peer group that their elder sister is already member of.

    This is an environment that is both dangerous for these girls and for the boys/men that they target to help their quest. We feel that better sex education, earlier in their lives may stem this social disease that is likely fueled by too much sexual content on the media.
    Though, this is a long way off and the current environment is likely to produce many sexually abused girls as well as both valid and falsely accused abusers.
    These are definitely dangerous times for all.

  100. Disgusted

    February 9, 2011 at 6:16 PM

    My son was 9 when he attended a program at a mosque in Texas. He was with over 100 men, children and youth . After Maghrib prayer, when he came to the car, I noticed how quiet and contemplative he was. I mentioned to my husband that something was not quite right, and had something happened. My son then proceeded to tell me about something that had taken place, and how he was so confused.

    My son was standing in the hallway in the masjid in the wudhu area, where an Uncle came to him. It was an Uncle/Brother he knew. He said the Uncle first brushed his hand across my sons private parts. My son said he thought nothing of it and thought it was an accident. My son said, I moved away and the brother (makes me sick to call him a brother) again came close to me. The brother stumbled, and pushed my son against the wall, and pushed his private parts against my son , and my son saw that his zipper was open. The man grabbed my sons hand and put it on his private parts, and my son said it was hard. At that time, someone came into the hallway, and the brother pulled away from my son, and made a show of chastising my son, that look at this naughty boy, everyone is praying and he is hiding in the wudhu area. The other person went away, and my son said, I did not know what to think when the Uncle told cannot tell anyone this, because no one will believe you.

    We were sick to our stomachs. Horrified . Disgusted., but dare we believe our son. My son told us who the person was, and we were even more horrified. It was an upstanding member of the community. I was ready to kill the scum.

    Both my husband and I spoke to someone about this incident and were told not to rock the boat. That the accused brother was an upstanding member of the community, multi generations of his family in the area, we should for the sake of our Creator keep our mouths shut and we cannot accuse someone without evidence . It would be the word of a 9 year old, versus a person who prayed salaat 5 times a day etc etc..And so we kept our mouths shut.

    My son did bump into the Brother again and again. Eventually the brother left the country for employment purposes , but returned and is now at another Mosque in the area. When my son was 14, he bumped into this man, and my son told him, I know what you did, it was not my imagination. The brother never came near him ever again.

    Fast forward. My son is now a senior in high school. He is a well adjusted person, who Alhamdulillah has not given us any problems. We spoke over what had happened and how it was not his fault. .. InshaAllah my son is ok.

    So for those who think this happens only to girls, open up your eyes. Unfortunately, the world is made up of sick individuals.. I can only pray my son will not have scars from this. My husband and I don’t know if we made the right choice by keeping quiet over this.

    In the end Allah knows best.

    • Abu Omar

      February 9, 2011 at 9:36 PM


      I was very disturbed after reading your post and very disgusted of the things some people who are supposed to be your brothers in Islaam do!
      But the confusing part is: Did you do the right thing “not rocking the boat”? Will the sick man do it again? That is what is worrying me…He shouldn’t be entrusted with authority over youth at any masjid, or anywhere for that matter. May Allah protect ALL the Muslims. Ameen.

      • Disgusted

        February 10, 2011 at 4:58 PM

        We always question our decision for not going public with this incident, for ‘not rocking the boat’. I don’t think a day goes by when I wonder if my son was his first victim, or his last, or what number? Did this man ever stop? You know, I know, that our Mosques and communities will finger point and curse the accuser. Deep down I know we did not want that to happen to us, and our son. That is my sad and and unfortunate cowardly answer.

    • Mariam

      February 10, 2011 at 2:28 AM

      I too was very disturbed after reading your post. Paedophiles do not stop at a single victim, they continue to abuse. I am glad for the sake of your son that further abuse of him was prevented but what about all the other children in your community? It is silence that enables this kind of abuse to continue and I believe every single one of us has a moral duty to act to prevent it.

      I urge you and your son to report this incident to the police. Every day you are silent is another day when this man can cause devastating harm to more young boys and if he was that brazen at a mosque, imagine his behaviour with extended family members in the privacy of home?

      The man who abused me when I was a child also carried on for decades; the mosque leadership were more concerned with reputation than they were for the protection of children. I don’t think I will ever fully heal and recover from what happened and I have to tell you that the cover up by the mosque and by my own parents was a major part of the damage caused. It was me who had to act in the end and in my case the perpetrator ws sent to prison where he remains today.

      This must stop now! Please protect the children in your community.


  101. Mantiki

    February 9, 2011 at 8:06 PM

    Its terrible when innocents are taken advantage of. This is unfortunately also common in Christian religious institutions and many single sex organisations set up for young people.

    I speculate that such events are the result of the repression of normal sexual desires which seems common to many religions, so that sexually frustrated individuals react by finding release where they believe it is safe to do so. The unavailability of a willing adult partner leads them to choose childish victims who they can bully physically (being bigger and stronger) and psychologically (its all your fault – you wouldn’t want your parents to find out would you?).

  102. Sarah

    February 9, 2011 at 9:18 PM

    A very needed topic to be discussed. Keep up the good work iA. May Allah SWT protect our dear youth and us all.

    • Safiyyah

      February 14, 2011 at 11:12 PM

      Salaams and Mabrook to all those with their courage to speak out. I wrote a piece on my site in response to an article in a Muslim magazine. The author of the article saw my piece and commented. Please read if you want and tell me if you think her naseehah for the sexually abused us correct. Note that the article author is from Pakastan.

  103. Muslim girl

    April 17, 2011 at 10:02 PM

    Hi! i would like informayion on what is going on in the arab world. and how when the hymen is broken your considered nt a vigin. wll what if you were molested and because of it your hymen is broken? what should you do? for example how to cover up about your hymen when you get married?

  104. Ranae Westall

    May 30, 2011 at 1:15 PM

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  106. Saudi Arabia

    June 17, 2011 at 2:53 AM

    May Allah Bless the originators of this discussion and site. I have never spoke about my incidents, but I hope they will be helpful to others.

    When I was 4-6, my family used to goto this mosque in the Kingdom. There was a muadhin there (a Pakistani man, though I caution anyone to draw conclusions from his ethnicity as I think this discussion cuts across ethnic boundries, but I’m including it for the sake of completing my story). The muadhins and imams there at that time (in the 1980s) lived next to the mosque. So this muadhin invited me over to his place. This seemed normal because he was very close to my father (red flag there), and kids in those days were left to play and wander. From what I remember, he offered me food or candy. Then I remember him have me strip and lie on my stomach. He used baby oil (a smell that I still associate to this day) to ease his disgusting private part into me. This happened numerous times and my father had no idea. I knew it was something that I couldn’t face my father to tell, not because I was afraid of my father, but because it just seemed so shameful.

    My father by the way is completely innocent from this and I have no regrets against him. He’s a noble man who doesn’t miss tahajjud, and I regularly keep my parents in my prayers.

    After that I remember the Saudi boys had sodomized me on numerous occasions when my family moved to another city. This is when I was 8-11. I had even asked them, where do they learn how to do this. One of them said that their family “yatadarrabu” which means some practice this within their familes. How disgusting.

    The molestation was normal among Saudis. Allah is my Witness, and so is the Prophet, Peace and Blessings Upon him. And I say, the Prophet, because when I was about 11, my father took us to do Umrah and visit Madinah. When we were doing Salam, a man was pulling my thawb and rubbing his privates from behind…RIGHT IN FRONT OF OUR PROPHET! Again, Allah and our Prophet, Peace and Blessings Upon him, his family, and companions, is a witness to this.

    These people took away the most precious moments from me. I find it very difficult to forgive these people, I know it could be my ticket to Paradise if I forgive with sincerity and thereafter live a sincere life, but it’s easier said than done.

    From then on, these incidents have haunted me. Once there was a turning point in my life when I was in high school, where I hit my sister in the face during an argument (something which I had never done before or after and may Allah forgive me). She kept telling me how I had everything easy and was complaining about my behaviour, and what’s when I told her that I was raped as a child. After that revelation, she took me to a psychologist almost immediately, and the psychologist concluded that I’m living a normal life and coped with this past very well, only with thanks to Allah and His Grace.

    Fast forward many years, and now I have children. I have been ever so cautious with them and I am trying to protect their innocence as much as I can. My wife is aware of my past, which has made dealing with this much easier. Everyday activities such as going to the gym or swimming pool, I always make sure to use family locker rooms even if it’s just myself and my son. I will never even imagine leaving my children alone at a madrasa or in a place where there can be privacy. It’s not that I dislike madrasas, it’s that you never know the people that run them, many of them are not sincere.

    There is something about people’s faces that I can tell, probably a gift from Allah, that I can sense that someone has a hidden intention, usually by the way they look at me or my children, how they interact, etc. After going thru what I went thru, I almost have a 6th sense. It’s hard to explain.

    I have much more to share, but I pray that this helps shed some light on the severity and seriousness of this issue. I don’t know what has happened to humanity, especially people who call themselves Muslims, and especially, those who claim to be doing God’s work.

    I pray that all victims find solace, comfort, and find a true and balanced life. May Allah be enough for the perpetrators.

  107. Samina

    June 19, 2011 at 6:33 PM

    Salams….I have also experienced molestation at 2 points in my life…once when i was extremely young…5 yrs old….then again when i was around 9 years old…both from 2 different first male cousins :(((((((((( its devastating and still affects my relationship with family today…I told my mother about 1 of the cousins…she believed me but never allowed me to discuss the topic. i feel as though i did wrong by opening up to her as it took me alot to be able to tell her..also as i dont really get on very well with her. Thank you for discussing this topic. :) shukran .x

  108. Imo

    July 13, 2011 at 10:50 AM

    What to say of a mother who’s son molested her daughter (i.e. brother molested sister) and mother did nothing but make the daughter feel responsible? How do you reconcile that as a child? Should the daughter make peace with her mother?

  109. Ladykhan

    February 9, 2012 at 10:55 AM

    Salaam. I need advice. I have just found out that my neice at the age of 11 was once  molested by her uncle (mothers younger brother) who has been living with them for about three years. She is now 13 going on 14 and has told nobody else. She has begged me not to tell anyone as it only happened once, although she has never been in good terms with him. She told me that she feels guilt that she let it happen. I dont know what to do, to keep her trust or to do the right thing. He lives in the same house! and her mother (my sister inn law) is completely unaware that it even happened. My neice claims that she doesn’t think about it, and is afraid that if it comes out it will destroy things and bring shame to her mothers family. Her father (my brother) died nearly 5 years ago, which makes it even more my responcibility to be fully aware of her safety. If her uncle stays in their house and I say nothing, what gaurantee do I have that he will never do anything, that he hasn’t changed? She also has a 6 year old sister……please tell me what to do!!??

    • Angel

      May 2, 2012 at 2:02 PM

      I would encourage you to tell her mother as who knows. He may be molesting her younger sister and just like her she may be scared to tell anyone. If it can happen once it can happen again.

  110. Angel

    April 25, 2012 at 4:15 PM

    It’s disgusting what these animals do to young cildren.

    I am a teen from UK and I hav been through a very similar stiuation to all the people here.

    At the age of 12 my grandma in Pakistan fell ill and both of my parents went to pakistan to help and see her. I stayed wih my aunty and her family for 4 weeks durng this time. One day I went to another aunties house of mine to pick up a few things with one of my cousin (my dad’s nephew). Once I had got what I needed he said to me lets sit down. When I sad lets go we can sit down in the car, he pulled me into the lounge and made me sit in his lap. I felt very uncomfortable and scared. I moved off and said I want to go. As I was leaving he pulled me towards him and and started to kiss me all over my face. I was shaking and was terrified. I cried for him to let me go but he picked me up and trid to kiss me again. Slowly he figured that I am not going to keep still and keep on screaming, so he threw me on the sofa and lied ontop of me. I don’ t think it would be proper for me to say what he did to me next but am sure you can guess. I was so shaken up and I was terrified to tell anyone. This has been happening for 4 years to me. I told my mum last year and she said no one would dare to do that in her house to me. She’s wrong.

    • disqus_QThPkRGgFr

      July 30, 2012 at 4:01 AM

      wait is this still happening? TELL THE POLICE BEFORE THIS CONTINUES

      • farooqui

        August 6, 2012 at 5:50 AM

        yes,please do what u can to make him stop! pray to ALLAH ,inshallah,all our prayers are with u sister!

  111. anon

    May 15, 2012 at 4:57 AM

    my daughter was abused by a relative when my family moved to Pakistan about 11 years ago.
    The abuser was a nephew of my husbands whose mother was always making excuses to stay away from her marital home and live with my family and my mother in law for months at a time. My daughter was about 7 or 8 when she was first abused. Many times i felt uncomfortable about the time she spent in his company but felt reassured that my son was also with her.
    My husband had no time for me or his children, he was overly devoted to his mother and then his sisters. This predator took full advantage of the long absences i had from my children while i was in the kitchen preparing food for several hours a day and my husband was chatting to his mother endlessly.
    for the next 8 years he made her do countless things.things reached such a peak that he threatened her that if she told me or her father he  easily convince us that she had initiated sex and seduced him and she was bad.
    the final straw was when he convinced his mother to bring a proposal of marriage at age fourteen for her, and just convinced her father and not cared about how i felt or what my daughter felt about it.
    I left Pakistan and came to London with my children and it was then that my daughter finally told me and i have been devastated ever since.
    she is still very troubled about her past and more so because her father doesnt believe her and thinks she is a wicked girl who is desperate for sex.
    How can i expose this person? what is the future for my daughter now? who will accept her? these questions haunt me.
    My daughter used to slash her arms,to get away from this pain and i fear for her mental health, as she needs to be believed that she was innocent and the filthy animal is still there pretending he is an honest and honourable “shareef” person.

  112. Coping

    June 26, 2012 at 4:39 PM

    Is this thread still active?

  113. Sibling

    July 29, 2012 at 8:53 PM

    Is advice still available?

    • Daughter

      August 13, 2012 at 9:19 AM

      I wonder too, i could need to ease my heart, but it looks like no one is active?

  114. TryingHard

    August 16, 2012 at 3:52 PM

    May Allah’s Blessings be upon you.
    I too was abused, but by a family driver. I was quite young, and I vaguely remember telling my mother, but she either misunderstood me or tried to brush it under the rug. The man scared me like nothing else, and though my mother knew that I was scared of him, she would take it as nothing, and continue using him. He was fired 2 years later, for stealing, I believe, and I was relieved beyond anything.
    But now that I have the benefit of retrospect, as well as some level of maturity, I regret not pressing the issue forward. Who knows, did he abuse someone else in my family too? Is he abusing someone right now? I feel disgusted just thinking about it, and all I can do is pray for whoever he may have hurt or is hurting, as well as for the worst punishment for his despicable actions.
    Sometimes I wish to bring up the matter again, but I know my grandparents, under whose service he was, would be devastated, and I could not bear to be the cause of such pain. I felt particularly disturbed by the it a few years ago, I would get nightmares and I couldn’t bear being alone with any kind of stranger, so I went to my mother and described the incident in detail. She was very surprised, she believed that the monster had simply put me in his lap. She told me to keep silent and just pray, and not tell anyone about it, not least my father, who would blame my grandparents immediately. Afterwards, she went on with how she was verbally harassed by a taxi driver and once a repairman, and how every one has to deal with these problems. I love my mother, and she is one of the best people I know, and she has done incredible things for me, but there will always be a part of me that will be bitter towards her for choosing to ignore my pain.
    If there are any parents out there who, may Allah forbid, have been abused, and they come to them, I beg them to atleast comfort their child, for, firstly, it takes great courage to reveal such a terrible thing, and because such an incident has already had a horribly deep impact on them and you would not want to be the one who makes it worse.

  115. Junaki

    January 3, 2014 at 12:08 AM

    I was abused about 26 years ago when I was 8 or 9 by my fathers brothers son (cousin). I was from UK and went to Bangladesh for holiday stayed for a few months. The problem was the house we were living was one big house with two sections, on the left side uncles family and on the right side my family and in the middle it was open and accessible to both families. It was two houses joint together where on the inside it access to both sections of the house. This is how my cousin was able to molest me twice as these were the only two times hardly anyone was about or we were sleeping and mother was at the back washing in the kitchen. My situation is different he was not a pedophile more like did it out of spite or revenge for his hatred of me father. You see my father and his father always had land dispute and even with the house we were living in. They were arguing and fighting yet also living amongst each other and keeping that family connection going. Unfortunately I was the innocent victim his prey. I was going to be his thing he took out to get back at my father/family. I was naïve unaware of what sex or abuse was. Until I came back to uk and watched tv and learnt. I only came out recently and told family sadly mother passed away many years ago didn’t get to hear of it. I am positive my family would have kept me quite the same reason muslims do as there only concern would be how is she going to get married etc. and the shame of it. So probably good I didn’t and went onto to marry and have two kids of my own. That must have annoyed my abuser a bit. For me I cannot sadly get prosecution as I live in the UK and the crime occurred in Bangladesh. So I hope and pray he suffers some other way and after his death. Many mothers are backward, uneducated and ignorant of this. They fail to teach kids the dangers as they think this would never happen or they assume allah will protect them. I think some parents should be put in prison along with the pedophiles. Parents failing to protect their kids and other kids by not reporting it. All countries should make it easy for reporting, investigating and prosecuting child abuse. Muslims need to stop protecting pedophiles whether Imams, mullas or family members. I think better for the child to go straight to the police not even bother telling the parents what is the point. Then have them a safe place to go to not be sent back to these stupid shameful neglectful parents.

  116. Junaki

    January 3, 2014 at 12:26 AM

    Forgot to mention, these are the so-called muslim men who rape and sexually abuse children and then expect to marry a virgin wife. Expect their own daughters to stay virgins and be good girls. How ironic. You see I have not read many people stating that the abusers should be reprted to the police and banged up in jail I keep hearing, pray to Allah, this and that crap. I mean come on guys. Even after parents find out catch them they let them go. So that they are free to go and abuse more children. That in itself is criminal. In the west thankfully we have laws to protect children and then robust systems to prosecute. But many muslim countries sadly do not. Don’t dare let your daughters get raped instead of getting justice they will get blamed or shunned. made to pretend never happened. your victimised for being a victim by the very people that should support you. In UK we call them pedophiles have muslim countries ever heard of that word? I would have dishoned my entire family if they behaved like some parents did after hearing of their childs abuse. I am grown up and now speak my mind. I don’t let my family take liberties with me. If they go against me I wont care if I never speak to them. demand respect even from you parents. KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.

    • Iqra

      January 18, 2014 at 7:49 PM

      I too was sexually molested as a child between the ages of 5-11. I am 18 years old now but the memories still bother me today. Somehow over the years I managed to forget about these painful memories and I repressed them into my subconscious memory. My molester was my own brother. My brother is ten years older than me so at the time I was five, he was fifteen, past puberty. At random times in my life I would recall these memories and found it hard to believe that my brother would do something as horrible as what in about to tell you. I took some time off college and my did my own repressed memory therapy. One of the first memories I recall was when I was about five and my brother 15; he was the oldest and the only son, he was seen as the leader of the younger siblings, all girls btw. He was especially close to me and my younger sister and would have private meetings with the both of us or with just one of us. I recall him having a lot of freedom as a growing teenager, he had a whole basement to himself that he coukd lock whenever and he also had a computer with which he could see anything. I remember he used to lock the basement door get completely naked and turn the lights off and run around naked with me and my younger sister. Me and my sister knew it was wrong to take your clothes off infront of other people and found it quite amusing as kids. We never did take our clothes off but we did find it amusing that he’d run naked. He did try to pull my clothes off but I knew it was wrong and didn’t allow him to do so. My mother knew that he was always up to something when he was alone with me and my younger sister in the basement and always had her suspicions. My mom told me not to go in the basement alone but I did anyways saying that he’s only going to show me a movie; I didn’t want to feel weird or hear my mother say not to go into the basement alone because he’s a boy, so I used to cover for him as a younger child and used to say that he’s not doing anything wrong. That day my mom had an unexpected guest and asked my older sister to go get me from the basement. He didn’t unlock the door until he had his clothes on. I covered for him that day and never told anyone until thirteen years later. Another memory I recall is when I was about nine and had a totally innocent mind, I think I was previously in the basement before with him and as I was about to leave telling him to come upstairs and eat, he opens the bathroom door looks at me says my name and then pulls his private part out and calls it his friend. I went upstairs immediately as I was DISGUSTED. His days of being a perverted teenager weren’t over. I don’t see the reason for him to do that to an innocent minded girl, he always talked about how the media affects the minds of the younger generations, but doesn’t this affect children as well!?! Hypocrisy at its finest. My parents always tried to separate the girls room from his but somehow he always managed to come late at night, while everyone was sleeping to our room and do various things to us while we were sleeping. Me and my younger sisters would always be the early sleepers so we would be in a deep sleep by the time he came around. He would try to pull our blankets off of us and try to take a peek at us and even touch our chest areas. My eldest sister even caught him doing something to me but acted as if she was sleeping. She’d tell my mom in the morning and said that he does these things to the three youngest siblings while we were sleeping. So she put a lock on our door. He still managed to get into our room because one of our sisters would sleep late and leave the door unlocked. He often would come to our room and masturbate himself while sitting on a chair. This is what really makes me angry even up to today. I was sleeping one night and woke up because I felt something on my face, it was him sitting next to my bed on a chair masturbating himself and touching my face!!! At that time I definetly knew the barriers between girls and boys and thought that his perverted days were done. He was 20 yrs old at that time, he should have known what he was doing goes against islam. I asked him what he was doing here and he said he asked me if I’d seen his headphones!!? Ridiculous! He left feeling really awkward, but the foul smell gave away what he was doing. I washed my face and changed my pillow case and stayed awake the whole night crying. It really makes me wander how men can do these perverse acts to their younger family members. I stayed up every night after that making sure he wasn’t there, this affected my school life as well. I wondered why he chose me and why not my other sisters in the room; I came to the conclusion that 1) he had done this before and that I never wake up 2) sometimes as a kid whenever he did these things to me I would act normal the next day and acted as if nothing happened 3) I wouldn’t tell my mother right away 4) I was still a kid to him who apparently had no sense of sexuality. My mom would lecture him about not doing these things with younger siblings throughout his teenage years but he was a stubborn guy who continued to do these things as long as no one was watching. He didn’t know or care that Allah was watching him, he didn’t seem to care about how much this affected me. He even had the nerve to ask my mom infront of me why I had dark circles around my eyes, if only he knew it was because I stayed up all night just to make sure he wouldn’t come again. He left after the last incident to dorm in college after finishing community college, I finally could sleep at night peacefully and became smart in school because I was constantly bullied by him. I would assume that the punishment for this crime is huge in islam because it affects someone’s dignity. I haven’t forgiven my brother for what he did to me as it was a serious crime that affects my life even today. Although he’s not perverted with his sisters anymore and is now married with a beautiful wife I don’t think I can forgive him. I’ll leave it up to Allah to judge him

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  119. prince

    July 23, 2014 at 6:51 AM

    if someone has done such a shameful act and now feeling ashamed what should he/she do …someone has shared me a likely event but now ashamed …??plz reply

    • Aamir Awan

      August 14, 2014 at 2:16 PM

      only solution is that u forget your past

  120. Aruba

    November 25, 2015 at 1:04 PM

    After reading these stories I realize that I am not alone many other suffer from that . I was 10 or 11 years old when I was molested by my neighbor’s eldest son . he was at that time may be 18 or 19 years old . I was a very shy and curious sort of kid who loves to read books . And then this happened . Me and my little brother were playing at grills of gallery of our house and we saw a cock and hen doing stuff which I thought at that time that cock jumped over that hen and he was beating her but the hen was silent why???????? .Then suddenly that adult came out of his home door in his gallery and I asked him as these birds were his pet . I asked what are they doing ? He said to me did you wanted to know and I said yes my brother also said yes but then he said come here I will explain you my brother said I also wanted to come but he said no to him I enter in his house at that time nobody was in his house . I felt a bit afraid then he locked the door on the lights and said to me to sit in guests room what I was thinking at that time was that he show me some kind of book and explain it but I wrong he came with empty hands . he said to me to lay on the sofa I said no I am OK then he forces me and then he took off my trouser I started crying and saying what are you doing he said its OK you will enjoy that and then he took off my pants . I was crying and saying no please I just know that what he was doing is wrong . he touches me . I want to disappear from that spot . and then my brother called me . He said to me don’t tell anybody about this . I ran to my home . after that whenever I saw him I hided myself I hate him so so much . Now I am 17 years old big girl . when I came to know what that guy did to me I hate myself too much for that . Why our society don’t tell us about these dangers . parents should have to tell their children before its get too late .Thank to Allah that we moved from that area . I never want that anybody passes from that what I passed from. Ya Allah protect all children ameen .

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  122. Anonymus

    April 10, 2016 at 10:46 AM

    My case is worse. When I was a kid, in grade 3, I was molested by my usthad who taught me quran in my madrasa. I didn’t know what he was doing to me. And till now, i am eighteen, haven’t said this to anyone. And I haven’t seen him again after i left that madrasa to study somewhere else. He was very old and…… i don’t wanna say it all here. but it was bad. he did that to many students and they didn’t know….. I haven’t said this to anyone but…… after realising what he did to me i have been crying all these years…..

  123. slave of ALLAH

    September 2, 2016 at 1:23 PM

    I think I will need a counselling,am suffering from similar case

  124. Sofia

    September 15, 2016 at 4:15 AM

    Dear Sister,

    I too am writing about this subject and would love to discuss resources. Please reach out to me, it would be greatly appreciated.

  125. Fatima

    June 17, 2017 at 9:42 PM

    Asaalamu alaikum dear brothers and sisters in Islam, I went through the same situation. I was molested by my driver at a very young age I was 4 if I guessed well. He would ask me to sit in the front seat close to him and then he’ll be touching my private part as he’s driving. I did not tell anybody because I was really scared and I dont even know if what he was doing is right or wrong because I was young…. That kept on going for sometime and then when I was 8 our househelp was a boy when ever I come to the kitchen he will ask me to remove my trousers and he’ll touch my private part and also ask me to touch his. At that point in my life I knew that what is happening was very wrong but I was really scared..I don’t have nightmares about it but whenever I remember what I went through I get so that sad and angry. I actually feel like dying because I feel like I will not have a good future. Please I need counseling.

  126. Unknown

    April 1, 2018 at 1:49 PM

    Assalamualaikum, I am a preteen.. I have been raped by my own father. Yes my father. It started in first grade when he was able to come here. I didn’t understand what he was doing… He is always touching me and doing stuff.. Trying to take advantage of me.. I cant tell my mom she will not believe me. Im a quiet person I never share how I feel inside. In 3rd grade I was always crying after I came back from school my parents made fun of me. My mom was like do you need to be in a mental hospital. I could not tell my mom why i was crying. I don’t want my family to be ruined. I just can’t see not living with both my parents. My mom would die. I can’t tell her. I hit my dad a lot like punch him kick him cause of what he does to me and my dad acts very nice and doesn’t hit me back… It’s so weird right when my mom is not home he is a different person and when my mom is home he is so innocent. What do I do? Please help. Im not going to say my name I want this to be kept private. Don’t share this please I need advice.

  127. Local Print

    June 3, 2022 at 6:37 AM

    Thanks for sharing this valuable information. I support you. Please keep writing!

  128. Anonymous

    June 12, 2022 at 9:09 PM

    Can you contact me please. I need help regarding the same issue.

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